434 Its You (1/2)

What do you think hurts more?

Physical pain?

Or...

Emotional pain?

People often believe that physical pain can numb the emotional pain. But when your heart is being crushed into a million pieces, how are you supposed to feel anything else?

Ying patted her clothes as she stood up from the ground and looked around to find the culprit who dared to give her a scare. Although falling from the tree was really hurting, the agony she felt within was far worse.

”Why did you do it, Zizi?” she glowered.

”Who told you to act like a monkey?” he questioned back.

Ying fixed up her hair as she answered, ”I was just looking at the beautiful full moon tonight. Is that a crime now?”

Xin Zimen placed his hand on her head affectionately, ”You heard everything, right?” It wasn't a question, his tone suggested that it was a statement he was certain of and her silence only proved him right. ”You really have the worst timing in the whole world.”

Ying took a deep breath and laughed mockingly, ”Right. I indeed have the worst timing. But do you know what else is even worse than my timing?” Xin Zimen looked at her inquisitively as she went on, ”It's my stupid intuition. The moment I heard Weiwei's voice, my intuition bellowed me to run. But I'm that idiot who stood there and let myself get hurt again.”

”Even though he's my son, I'd like to say he doesn't deserve you.”

Ying looked at his face in surprise and smiled, ”Are you complimenting me or insulting your son?”

”Both,” he answered casually.

”How come you still don't understand, Zizi? It's not about whether he deserves me or not, the point is that he is the one I loved since I learned the meaning of love.”

”I wonder whom should I take for an eye checkup, you or my son?” Ying furrowed her brows at him as he added, ”I mean I think you both need to see an eye specialist. Xiaoli because he's too blind to see you and you because you can't even see anyone else other than him.”

”No wonder people call you weird,” began Ying. ”That's no way to comfort someone.”

”But I wasn't trying to comfort you,” replied Xin Zimen calmly. Ying looked perplexed as he continued, ”A person like you doesn't need comforting. No matter what I say, I know I'm gonna make it worse for you.”

Ying didn't know why she smiled at his words but she did.

”I know you're neither gonna run from this pain nor are you gonna share it with anyone. You can feel the pain and you can understand it, now the question is how long it's gonna take before you accept it.”

”I've accepted it long ago that he wasn't mine,” said Ying making him frown as she turned to leave and whispered softly, ”It's just my heart that's unwilling.”

She wasn't fond of showing her tears that easily to anyone no matter how close she was to someone. But she found silence and loneliness quite comforting at this moment. Those burning tears were making her vision blurry to the point that she really didn't know where she was driving off to now. It was almost midnight and the road was almost empty, it was good for her otherwise she would have definitely gotten into an accident.