432 The Fourth Letter (1/2)

//The Fourth Letter

'I had never been fond of my name. Not ever.

It always felt like someone was mocking me. Destiny...

They say everything is controlled by destiny, and that's why I hated my name even more because I couldn't even control my own temper much less controlling my own life. I don't know what kind of image you can paint of me by the letters I wrote to you but I can assure you, Destiny Novell is anything but a good person.

But since a good person like you loves to believe in the goodness of others, I'm gonna break this shocking news to you; Every person is born with a touch of evilness. It's a game of who has come to hide his nature well. Since we all are pretending anyway.

Now you must be thinking that every letter of mine comes with a random context. And you might also feel like I'm treating these letters as my personal diary or something. The thing is, you aren't wrong. I feel the same.

These letters will stay as my personal diary until I decide to post the letters to you which doesn't seem like it'll happen any time soon.

Coming back to the real point of why I brought up the topic of my name so suddenly. I have a reason for that. Today, I asked Clara for a favor. I have finally decided to change my name.

Now, don't get mad at me but I ended up choosing... Bai Xiu as my new name.

Yes, indeed, Xiu is taken from your name and Bai because I'm the complete opposite of it's meaning. Bai means pure or calmness and I, Destiny Novell has never been pure or calm. I still remember how my current best friend called me wicked when we first met.

The other day I broke a glass bottle on someone's head because I lost my temper AGAIN. Good thing my mentor handled the situation otherwise I... Forget it, you shouldn't know the details. All I wanted to make clear here is that I'm not a calm or patient person. I like raising my fists before opening my mouth.

I've also been a very careless and carefree person in life. Perhaps, that carelessness of mine is now coming back to bite me back.

I told you about my dad in the last letter, right?

I thought I was just being paranoid but now I'm certain someone is not letting me reach my dad. I have put my failure on fate as well but something in my heart kept telling me that this time, someone was really out to get me.

My mentor always told me, 'Believe your intuition, it can create miracles.'

I should have listened. My intuition wasn't wrong at all. I just didn't believe it.

Do you know I got locked up in the elevator last week? The elevator dropped from the twentieth floor and kept going down after taking an abrupt break at every five floor down.'

Xiu needed a break from this letter. She didn't know how she was supposed to continue reading it. Because right now her mind was threatening to experience another mental breakdown. Even drinking a whole damn bottle of water didn't help her much. She picked up her phone from the side and started pacing as she dialed a number.

”How did your date go?”