408 Go Easy (2/2)

”Even if it was someone else other than Chen Xiu, I'd still hate you this much. I can't believe you turned your back on someone's life and you expect me to not turn my back on you? Is human life that cheap for you people now? What did that girl even do to you all? All she ever did was being too kind to even monsters like you!”

He didn't even realize when his tears had started falling. He turned around and strode away from the girl who was shouting his name. Calling for him. Apologizing again and again. But how was he supposed to forgive her?

*End of Flashback*

Dylan abruptly sat up in his bed and rubbed his hand on his face. He blamed his condition on Darren who reminded him about that incident and his ex-girlfriend all over again. He had always been smug before Xiu but now that he thought about it; the thought that she Chen Xiu drove him crazy.

How was he supposed to look her in the eyes again?

How was he supposed to tell her that he was once associated with a person who had been involved in her death?

He suddenly felt so much guilt that it suffocated him.

Not being able to calm down or sleep, he left the room and came downstairs. While he was gonna enter the kitchen he bumped into his father.

”Hedi, you haven't gone to sleep?” Qiu Jiayi asked in a concerned voice.

”I couldn't sleep, dad,” he answered softly.

”Drink some milk or eat a banana, it will help with sleep.” Dylan nodded his head trying to smile at his father. ”But if something's bothering you, you can always share it with me. I'm always here to listen.”

”I know, dad,” he began. ”But I really don't know what or how to share anything with you.”

”Hmm... Is it that difficult?” Dylan nodded his head. ”Then you don't have to say anything. Just don't be too hard on yourself.” Qiu Jiayi patted his son's shoulder in support. ”No matter what, your dad is here for you.”

Dylan couldn't help hugging his father who was taken aback a bit since Dylan was a clingy person but only with his mother. He would rarely hug his father. But if he was doing it, it meant he was really having a difficult time. ”Hedi.”

”Hm.”

”It's okay to cry if you feel like it but make sure the people or worries you're shedding those tears for are actually worth it.” He pulled away from his son and smiled gently at him. ”Because I believe my son's tears shouldn't be wasted on just anyone.”

”You don't even know what's going on with me,” grumbled Dylan.

”I don't have to. Your face is very easy to read. Besides I'm your dad, I know you well.”

Dylan could only shake his head at his father who left him after giving a few more words of encouragement. It was actually a good thing that he ran into his father. At least, it saved him from dwelling in his own guilt all over again after all those years.