Chapter 242 - Lets Grab A Drink (1/2)
Admiration and envy are the terms that are closer to each other than one think. Seeing the good brings out the good in us or the jealousy within us. However, it's not always true. Sometimes, we don't envy others just because we can't admire them. After all, envy can bud from admiration and admiration can bud from envy likewise. However, envy is also just another way of admiration.
And that's exactly what Dylan meant when he said that he was envious of Chen Xiu.
”She had nothing. How can someone who had nothing made you envious of her?” questioned Xiu while glancing at the side of Dylan's face.
Dylan gave a brittle smile as he said, ”A lot of people were envious of her and her achievements. Why couldn't I be one of those people?”
”Because you lacked nothing in life,” replied Xiu in a straightforward way.
His mirthless expression seemed odd to Xiu as he replied, ”Indeed, I lacked nothing in life and perhaps that why I ended up admiring her even more. She lacked all that I had and yet her way of seeing life was phenomenal.” He took a pause while Xiu rolled her eyes at him.
'Phenomenal? Really? Then how come I ended up being such a failure?' she wondered to herself but still silently waited for Dylan's reply. She wanted to hear what he had to say.
”Whenever I felt down, I'd only have to look around and I'd find her smiling at me through a screen. I don't think she ever realized how much that smile of hers mattered to people like me. It was all I needed to smile back at her. She was always there whenever I felt lost, tired or lonely. As if it was some kind of a connection.”
Hearing his words, Xiu scoffed, ”Silly, it wasn't a connection. You should say she was so famous that wherever you looked you'd find her endors.e.m.e.nt ads. It can't be described as a connection.”
Dylan glared at her again for spouting nonsense, ”Oh, really? There were other ads as well. Then why was it that only she was able to affect me? I cried with her, laughed with her, felt sad with her and even fell in love with her.” He turned to face Xiu and went on, ”She was the angel with no wings but not just for me. Do you know she loved kids? Whenever she had time, she'd visit an orphanage, she loved spending time with those kids.”
Xiu's eyes widened as she blurted out, ”How do you know that?” Her shock was obvious since nobody knew what she did as a hobby, not even her assistant. Her free time was spent either wandering on the streets or visiting an orphanage. There was no doubt that she loved those kids. They reminded her of how she had no love in her life like them.
”I used to do voluntary work in the orphanages in my teens. During that summer break, I was in Capital staying with my uncle when I went to that orphanage. I honestly never thought I'd see her there laughing, playing and acting silly with those children. For the very first time in my life, I actually saw what her genuine happiness looked like.” Xiu could see the admiration for herself in his eyes making her feel weird inside.