Chapter 188 - Youre My Present (1/2)
An author named Colin Wright once said, ”Unanswered questions aren't threats; they're challenges and catalysts.”
Having said that we can't deny the fact that every unanswered question feels like a threat rather than a challenge. Mostly when that answer could define your feelings. Because it leaves a doubt within our hearts that doesn't go away unless we hear the definite answer. We also can't deny that it's that threat part that allows us to challenge ourselves to find the right pieces of the puzzles.
At the moment, that threat was the feeling Xiu felt when Darren chose to avoid her question by saying that she needed to stop overthinking. But Xiu couldn't do that. She might not have been the jealous type in her previous life but with him, she really knew what jealousy really felt like. It wasn't that she couldn't tell Darren really had feelings for her. Even though he often made her giddy like a teenager but she was, in fact, a mature woman. She was more practical than anyone around her. She might do dumb things but she never read people wrong after her rebirth.
Yet the feelings she saw in his eyes when asked if he missed his first love were... Disturbing? Threatening? No matter what she could tell that those feelings were intense enough to make her feel insecure. But since all she felt was insecure as Chen Xiu, she quickly shook her head to get those thoughts out of her head.
However, she forgot that her head was lying on Darren's chest while she cuddled up to him and was only reminded when she heard his voice, ”Don't tell me you're still thinking.”
Xiu pursed her lips and sheepishly replied, ”I'm not.”
Darren, however, didn't believe her at all and while running his fingers through her hair said, ”You don't have to keep it in like this. Just tell me what's on your mind. Huh? No keeping secrets, remember? You made that rule.”
Xiu drew circles on his chest with her pointer finger and contemplated for a bit before asking, ”You said your first love went far away. And since I have a lot of time to overthink about weird stuff, I was wondering... Where did she go?”
Darren's fingers running through her hair took a pause of half a second or so but Xiu noticed this change because of her over-sensitive feelings. She even felt the way his heartbeat changed when he replied, ”She's gone to a faraway land.”
”Which faraway land?” asked Xiu with creased brows.
”Mmmm... Dreamland?” answered Darren with a playful tone which sounded rather sad than playful and even tried to laugh it off when Xiu hit his chest and sat up to stare at him with narrowed eyes as if to say, 'It wasn't funny.' Noticing her expression, Darren rubbed his forehead with his index finger and pulled her down in his arms again as he replied, ”If her thought is making you feel insecure than I can assure you that she won't come back.”