Chapter 100 - Is That A Yes? (1/2)

Life often has a way of presenting us with a question. We can either choose the same old road that got us here in the first place or we can choose to do something we never saw ourselves doing. Sometimes, what we thought was real ended up as just an illusion. Now, Xiu was taking a chance with those sparks she felt with Darren that seemed like an illusion to find some reality.

She didn't know what Darren and she had but whatever it was, she knew she wasn't willing to give up on it without trying. She didn't want to regret this moment. She loved it that he could make her wear a smile without even trying at all. It was something new to her. But it was equally exciting as well.

”Date? You?” Darren's brows quirked up ever so slightly at her.

Xiu played with her fingers as she said, ”I know the idea is abrupt and seems very random. Also, I know I'm a f.u.c.k.i.n.g disaster. But...” She looked at him again with a sincere look and said, ”I promise I'll be an awesome f.u.c.k.i.n.g disaster and not the worse kind.”

Darren chuckled at her response and asked, ”Do you like me?”

Xiu nodded her head before shaking it. ”I mean, I do like you as a friend. As a person. You could be considered a very rare kind of a decent man I've met in my life. I can't find a reason not to like you.”

”So you don't have any feelings for me?” he questioned with interest. Oddly, his own mind was blank for now. There was nothing running through his mind at all. All of his attention was on Xiu and her answers.

”Do you?” Xiu asked in response and Darren gave her an inquisitive look. ”I mean you also don't have any feelings for me. At least not the ones you could give a name to.” Darren was taken aback since her words had hit the mark. He couldn't refuse even if he wanted to. ”But as I said last night, is it necessary for our feelings to have a name. Isn't the mystery of not knowing those feelings even more intriguing?”

Darren stayed quiet for a minute before speaking, ”People who date are often looking for either love or help, what are you looking for?”

Xiu didn't expect this question from him but she still had to answer, ”I'm neither looking for love nor help. What I'm looking for are words.” Darren's brows creased and she continued, ”The words to describe that connection we have with each other. You're not an impulsive person neither am I. Yet, we both get impulsive around each other like last night. You came running to the bus stop without even thinking, just like I hugged you without any thought. I want to learn why we have that connection.”

Darren was lost for words to know how aligned her thoughts were with his own. They both felt something, but both had no words for that feeling. Both felt a strange connection. Both were being impulsive around each other. And both weren't really looking for love. Yet they both were curious to learn about the other one.

”I can even list out the perks of dating me,” Darren looked at her again as she went on counting, ”First of all, I am a very honest person. Second, you don't have to worry about cheating at all since I literally despise any other man. Third, whenever you say that we are not good together, we'll just go back to being friends.” Darren kept listening silently and she kept talking all by herself, ”You can always count on me. Also, I actually respond to texts, unlike someone who vanishes for days without so much of a simple text.”