Chapter 123 - Confession (2/2)

”What?” Li Ru jumped and rapidly blinked at Lei Xing, then she looked down and mumbled, ”I don't.”

Lei Xing looked at her reddened face and laughed, ”You're a very bad liar.”

Li Ru knit her brows and did not respond. Lei Xing smiled and then nudged her, ”Who's the lucky guy?... Or girl? I'm open to all.” Lei Xing jokingly finished.

Li Ru looked up at her fl.u.s.tered and protested, ”I-I don't!”

”You said it would be helpful to talk...but you don't even want to talk, yet you want me to talk...” Lei Xing grumbled.

Li Ru bit her lip and glanced at Lei Xing's downtrodden face then said, ”Fine...”

Lei Xing smiled at her and Li Ru sighed and quietly said, ”I may have liked someone before...but it doesn't matter.”

”Good looking?” Lei Xing asked. Li Ru glanced at her, blushed and nodded.

”Why didn't you run away with him like your sister then? Not that I advocate for eloping...but considering everything it definitely would have been better, right?”

Li Ru glanced at Lei Xing and then shook her head, ”It's impossible.”

Lei Xing looked at her then sighed and rested her head on her hand.

{...Life is really not easy...}

They sat quietly for a while, each with their own thoughts, then Li Ru suddenly asked, ”What about you? You like the Emperor, don't you?”

Lei Xing looked up at her wide-eyed with an appalled expression, ”Why the hel- What?”

Li Ru blinked, ”You don't?... I thought you did.”

Lei Xing blinked a few times, still flabbergasted asked, ”What gave you that impression?”

”Oh...Well, you seemed happier the last few days despite the fact that you were ill...so I thought...”

Lei Xing knit her brows.

{...Happy? Who was happy?!... Nothing wrong with being happy, but can't a person just be happy to-...to be ALIVE?...}

Before Lei Xing could enlighten her, the doors opened and Xiao Ruo happily trotted in and informed, ”Your highness, the Emperor has asked for you to return. The night is very cold and he doesn't want you to get sick again so he sent me here to get you.”

Lei Xing looked down and pouted and did not respond.

”It's really quite late, you should hurry back to rest.” Li Ru advised, trying to persuade her to leave before she caused herself trouble with the Emperor.

Lei Xing looked at her and then disgruntedly grumbled then got up, ”Fine,  I'll let you sleep.” Li Ru snorted, thinking that a disgruntled Lei Xing was quite adorable. Although she knew not to say that out loud, Lei Xing did not respond well to such terms of endearment.

Xiao Ruo dr.a.p.ed Lei Xing's cloak over her shoulder as she happily whispered to her that the Emperor specifically asked her to bring it, which caused Lei Xing to frown.

Li Ru then came up to her and patted her back, smiled and advised, ”If he's good to you, then you also should not be too difficult.”

Lei Xing frowned at her and then grumbled good night and left. Li Ru watched her leave and then sighed. She knew Lei Xing did not want to be in the palace, but since she was ready here was it not better for her to accept her fate?

Li Ru sighed again and went out of the room, looked up at the moon and sighed.

{...Living well is already good enough....Ah, the moon is quite beautiful tonight...}