44 You Better Remember Tha (1/2)

Su Yan cracked his eyes open. Nie Chang's voice sounded unfamiliar to him at this moment. When had it gotten so … hoarse?

”You —” Su Yan instantly stopped. His own voice didn't sound any better. He gulped but Nie Chang had already relieved him of having to say something.

He once again stroked Su Yan's cheek and smiled. ”We should get going or we're going to miss the workshop.” He stepped back, took Su Yan's hand and led him toward the parking area.

Su Yan didn't say a word. He was unable to think straight. Actually, he wasn't able to think anything. His head was in a haze. He just followed Nie Chang and got in the car when he opened the door for him, still staring blankly ahead. Slowly, one realization made it's way to the front: He had just kissed his best friend and he had actually liked it.

Su Yan lifted a hand to his lips, unable to believe what had happened. Nie Chang saw exactly that scene when he himself got in the car and he smiled.

He fastened the seatbelt for Su Yan, buckled his own and started the car. He waited for a while before he coughed lightly. ”Su Yan …”

Su Yan came out of his daze and spun around. He still seemed a little out of sorts.

”About what happened before … Can I ask you something?”

Su Yan really wanted to shake his head but after they had done that already, there really was no use. He nodded.

”Actually, I don't really know how to say this. I do understand that you're … surprised?” He raised his brows before taking a look at Su Yan in the mirror. ”Considering your family situation you probably never came into contact with anyone who was gay. Or, well, even if you did, they most likely wouldn't talk about it. So it's expected that you're surprised about that. It's just … After you looked that up online, didn't that co-worker of yours confess to you? That Li Ming? He even kissed you. Why did you still …”

”Oh …” Su Yan looked out of the window next to him. Indeed. Why had he still believed that that wasn't real? Or … had he? ”I probably just didn't think about it. I mean … All of that happened because of the System. It's like there's a big conspiracy going on.”

”Oh.” Nie Chang took a quick glance at him before concentrating on the road again. ”So, do you believe it now?”

Su Yan also peeked at Nie Chang. When he saw that his friend wasn't looking, he continued to observe. He really didn't know what to think. He had known this person next to him for many years. Nie Chang had never had a girlfriend, even though the girls liked him. There had been many that had been friendly to Su Yan to get closer to Nie Chang and that despite the fact that Su Yan's family background was better than Nie Chang's by a large margin. He hadn't taken an interest in any of them.

”Ah Chang.”

”Mn?”

”So … Do you … Do you like men?”

Nie Chang smiled and shook his head. ”I don't.”