Chapter 220 - Its simple. Love. (1/2)
After eating, Kris and Lena went out of the balcony. It was a large front balcony that was built on the side of the mountain.
”You sit down first.” Kris spoke.
”Okay.”
Lena walked herself to a large, cushioned balcony sofa and sat down. She looked back to stare at the doors to see when Kris will come back instead of enjoying the natural forest view. After a few minutes, Kris came back carrying a large laptop.
He sat down next to Lena and placed the laptop on the table.
”What's that for?” Lena asked.
”I can't show everything in one day because things come and go. But I will try to expose myself to you as much as I can but without overwhelming you too.”
Kris opened the laptop and a picture of him showed it. Lena stared at the page that showed up. It looked like a profile page.
”This is my profile page within the Li organization. Things I did since I first join, my training, assignments, kills, fails, and successes.”
Lena grabbed the laptop and placed it on her lap. She clicked on kill first and looked at the statistics. ”Do you have the most kills?”
”No...”
”Have you ever killed a child?”
”Plenty.”
Lena turned and looked at him. He stared at her too. ”A baby?”
Kris paused before replying, ”Yes.”
Lena did not say anything and just went back to look at his profile. If she has nothing good to say, she won't say it at all. Kris knew that those truths might be a bit hard for Lena to accept, and he himself still remember every single kill he did that involved children.
”It stopped....” Kris spoke. ”Well, more like everything stopped after my mother woke up.”
Lena glanced back at Kris and smiled gently at him. ”You don't need to explain. The past is part of you but not entirely you.”
Kris sighed and closed his eyes. He put his head and rested on Lena's shoulder. ”Why do you always forgive so easily? I can't.... I can't do that.”
Lena put the laptop back on the table and put one hand on Kris' head. ”Hm... because it's you. I really don't know... but that's the only answer I can think of. And it is only because it's you. I understand that others might not forgive so easily when it comes to you, but there has to be a start. And I will be that start for you if that's just how things are.”
Kris lifted his head from her shoulder and looked at her. ”I still can't forgive my grandfather completely.”
”Unimportant people don't need forgiveness. You're not weak just because you can't forgive someone. And you are not weak either because you can forgive easily. Everyone has their own reasons to forgive or not.” Lena replied. ”You can't pretend to forgive someone. It will just torture you more because the other person thinks that your relationship is good again.”
”I am meeting my grandparents next weekend.”
Lena knew... because she was also going to be there.
”That's why...” Kris continued. ”Why I wanted to show you myself now than later. Because I know that when more people know about us... there will be some that will keep us apart. So I wanted to show you the most I can and so that you don't have to hear it second-handed from someone else.”
”Thank you. But no matter what people say, I will still trust myself and my own decision making. And I will also trust to see it from your side too before jumping to conclusions.”
”If someone... threatened your family over me... who would you choose?”
Lena pondered... She had never thought of such a scary situation. Between her family and Kris.. who would she choose?
”Hmm... Like if someone was going to kill my family or kill you?”
”Yeah.” Kris replied.
”Well... I would choose my family.”
Kris was not disappointed. Whatever answer Lena said, he was fine with it. He, himself may not really know who to choose between his mother or Lena.
”My dad obviously does not know how to shoot a gun or run very fast. My mom is dead weight so I would choose them and leave you. I trust that you can beat your way out of 100 men with guns, right?” Lena explained.
Kris put a hand over his mouth and laughed. ”Lena... you always make the weirdest replies.”