Chapter 176 - My boyfriend (2/2)

She did not wake up until her doorbell rung a few times. She got off her head and looked at the time. 'SHIT... almost 4 p.m. for her meeting.'

She went to open the door for James and told him to wait for her. She quickly brushed her teeth and got ready. James already got a new phone for her and he said that he can take care of her car while she was with Stella.

Lena was still tired when she was sitting in the room with Stella. This time, she chose to sit on the sofa so it would be better for her back.

”Rough night? Kris was it?” Stella started the conversation.

”You know?”

”They always call the gang every time it happens so I would know.”

”Yeah... rough night.”

”You want to talk about it?”

”Nope.” Lena was over that whole entire night.

*cough 7 chapters if you didn't realize... we need to move on*

”Well, anything else you want to share?” Stella asked.

”I am in love.” Lena spoke. ”I am in love with Kris.”

Saying it fully for once out loud to someone else but her mind, it felt nice. It had an angelic tone to the word love. It also felt more real, like she did not need to hide it anymore.

Stello was surprised. ”That's a big development from last week.” Just last week she said she was not in love.

”Yeah. I felt that...” Lena smiled. ”I loved him first before I desired him. Is that normal?”

”It happens. But it could also be the other way around. And some people think that lust is love and love is lust, but that is not always true. Both are completely two different things.”

”I love Kris and I have some lust for him. Two different feelings for him.” Lena was sure about her feelings for him. Sure she had dirty thought about him but overall, she loved him more. Lena once told Andy that if you really love a person, your lust can wait.

”But... I don't know if he even knows those feelings. I mean does he?”

”I don't know. A lot of his life was surrounded by darkness, but most of his recent life, he had been showered with love. So I think he would know what it is. Have you told him yet, about your feelings?”

”No. Not with everything that just happened.” Lena looked down at her hands. ”You know that feeling where you don't want to confess to your friend? Because taking a friendship to a higher step can ruin that strong friendship?”

Lena looked up at Stella. ”It would be a lie if I said that I wasn't afraid. No one would like to be rejected.” She smiled. ”But I am optimistic about it. After he's back from his vacation, I will pursue him. Tease him a bit and then confess.”

Lena's eyes smiled brightly and she spoke.

”That reminds me of me and my boyfriend. We were... friends or co-workers I guessed... and we fell in love. Not saying everything will always be successful, but it happens. I understand your feeling of uncertainty. If you confess, and he rejects you, there is an awkwardness in the friendship. If he accepts you but later on, the relationship doesn't work out, you lose a friend and a boyfriend. And then is the other path of finding real love.”

”If he rejects me, I was planning to threaten him. Is that too harsh?”

Stelle smiled. ”I don't think you need to worry about that.”

Lena shared more about her weird plans while Stella offered advice. When talking about love, time past by so quickly.

”Our hour is over, but would you like to go to dinner with me and my boyfriend?” Stella asked. ”Oh, and he has a third party pooper friend with him, and if you go, it'll be less weird for all of us.”

”Your boyfriend?”

”Yeah. You can finally meet him.”

”Then, I will surely take the offer then.” Of course, Lena can never deny free food!

Lena texted James that she was going out with Stella. He can finish taking care of her car business and take the rest of the day off.

Lena and Stella walked down the building together until they reached the outside.

Stella rushed ahead as she spotted her boyfriend. ”COLE!” She waved at him.

Lena's smiled dropped.... 'Collin?! Don't tell me the third party pooper friend is...'

Collin got out of the car and kissed Stella on the cheek. ”Ah, Miss. Shen. Guessed you'll be joining us for dinner then?”

”Us?”

”Yeah, Kris is right there. You'll drive with him.” Collin smiled.

”Ah..” Stella lets go of Collin and walked to Lena to whispered to her. ”I once told you, everything you shared is just between us. When I walk out of my office, everything said in that room stays.”

Stella assured Lena that regardless of her relationship with Dr. Tye or Collin, her patient privacy comes first. She winked at Lena and hopped into the car with Collin.

Kris got out of his car and smirked at Lena. ”Guess I am seeing you later...”