C45 (1/2)

”I'm not drunk yet, why don't you let me drink?” Chen Yu Xin wanted to get herself drunk. There were some things that she couldn't say when she was awake, so she might as well expose herself when she was drunk. Perhaps it was better for her this way, which was why he forced her to get drunk.

”If you can't drink, everyone will get drunk. Stop trying to be brave. I'll send you back.”

”No, I don't want to go back, I don't want to go back either. Song, can you accompany me? Do you know how much I miss you, Song? I miss you so much that I can't bear to leave you. ” Chen Yu Xin was so intoxicated that her eyes were blurry as she spoke incoherently.

Zhang Song looked at the drunk Chen Yuxin and let out a long sigh. He shook his head and didn't say anything else. He just quietly looked at Chen Yuxin. Under the influence of the alcohol, Chen Yuxin gradually quieted down. Soon, she fell asleep on the sofa. He curled up his body, his hands tightly hugged his chest. From time to time, his body would tremble and his eyebrows would furrow. He looked like a wounded lamb, which was indeed a very doting sight.

Zhang Song saw everything, so he didn't disturb the sleeping Chen Yuxin. He got up and took off his coat, then walked up to Chen Yuxin and covered her as if she was a blanket. Only then did Chen Yuxin feel a sense of comfort.

On the other side, Mu Xinyi's happiness and sweetness were warmly progressing, but she did not wake up. In her muddled dream, the whiteness of the east appeared.

The next day, when Chen Yu Xin woke up from her drunkenness, she found herself on a large, white bed. She looked around her and realized that she was in her hotel room. She slapped her head hard from the alcohol, and tried to think back to last night. It seemed that after he fell asleep in the bar last night, Zhang Song had brought him here and rented a room for him. However, he didn't know when Zhang Song had left. Did he leave last night? Or just left this morning? At this moment, this puzzling question appeared in Chen Yu Xin's mind for no reason.

But soon, Chen Yu Xin saw a piece of paper on the table. She took it and opened the slip of paper, revealing a beautiful and smooth writing, ”Yu Xin, I am truly sorry for my love for you.” I have dreamed countless dreams, hoping that the main character in the dream was you, but the truth is, you have never been the main character; I have also had countless fantasies, but none of them has anything to do with you.

Maybe life is like this, only meet, experience, pull some kind of relationship, otherwise his or her all have nothing to do with you.

Actually, you and I both have this kind of youth. There is no war, no unrest, no separation, nothing but meeting some people, going through some things, going through the same years, and missing out on someone you should have missed.

A year ago, I would have believed that you were my faith, that I existed because of your arrival, but unfortunately, God played a big joke on us, letting us meet in the vast sea of people, but only passing by each other, and not knowing each other, and perhaps even God was jealous, so we arranged so many accidents that we had to go farther and farther from each other, unable to turn back.

The world was like this. It could be big or small, but it was all about seeing or not seeing. The same is true of relationships. As long as you let go of love, you will always find the love that belongs to you. As long as you do not misunderstand the meaning of love, believe that you will have an unexpected harvest, sometimes force yourself to love the person you do not love, how is it not pain for him, if two people in this painful feelings, what meaning is there? What about love? Your love for me is nothing more than a reliance that cannot withstand the trials of wind and frost; my love for you is also a dependence, but it is worn away by time. Our love has deteriorated and will never return to the past.

Love is sacred, solemn, not the kind of narrow love, relatively speaking, love is a kind of tolerance, is a kind of tolerance, is a kind of appreciation, is not selfish, narrow, greedy. Does loving someone mean wanting everything you want from him? No, love is not desire and possession, but giving and sacrificing.

Maybe God was fair to everyone, God arranged for me to meet you to teach me love through you, your existence taught me what love is and how to love it. The current me is no longer me and my heart does not belong to me alone. It also belongs to Mu Xinyi. Forgive me, my heart is very small, I can only hold one person. Since you, my heart can only hold one person, and sometimes I will also realize that I didn't love you as much as I imagined, I didn't even cry when you left me, and when I was with Mu Xinyi, every movement and expression of hers could deeply pull at my heart, making it throb all the time … I don't think I'll ever accept anyone but her. If she does not leave me, I will not leave her; if she does not leave me, I will not leave her; if she is well, I will not leave her.

Sometimes, a simple wish can become an extravagant request. Sometimes, what we desire is nothing but a simple desire. Even though my current life can't be any simpler, fortunately, Mu Xinyi was always by my side silently accompanying me. With her, I don't need any extravagant hopes, as long as she can stay by my side forever.

So, for you, I don't know what to say except to apologize. Thank you for the years you accompanied me through, you are the most beautiful mistake in my life.

”Your prince is not me. I hope that you cherish yourself well. As long as time arrives, you will find the prince that truly belongs to you. He will treat you like how I used my life to love and cherish Mu Xinyi.”

Chen Yu Xin looked at the words in her heart as her heart bled. At this moment, she finally understood the meaning of heartbreaking pain: sadness drained all of her strength, and at this moment, her eyes were filled with resentment, she fiercely squeezed the letter she hadn't finished reading into a ball, and threw all the strength in her body far away. Tears fell from her face, accompanied by the sound of sobbing.