Chapter 9 (1/2)
Translator: La0o9 Editor: La0o9
Due to the feeling of superiority by being a world traveller compared to the primitive natives of this world, combined with the fact that they hadn’t been able to resist any of his means, Wang Yuan had underestimated these humans a bit too much.
“I was originally only a human being as well. Disregarding my supernatural powers, everything else about me is that of a person, and not even an exceptional person. How could such personalities surpass others and become the manipulator of all things?”
Wang Yuan glanced down at the ground full of bodies, recalling the emotions and memories he took in when he absorbed their aura.
If a person holds immense grudge and hatred in their hearts before death, then these negative emotions would attack Wang Yuan’s consciousness.
But what if they hold positive emotions instead? Would I be able to use these emotions to alter and improve my own personality?
“Like how Dax was” Wang Yuan looked at Dax’s corpse.
Before he died, the emotions he had included a determination to accomplish his goal at all cost. If I absorb these emotions, would I be able to make myself less hesitant and become more determined?
As for if these changes would make him not himself anymore, Wang Yuan didn’t care. In the end, his current self was only a remnant soul of the person who used to be called Wang Yuan. People would eventually change and grow, if you look back at your current self several years from now, you would find only a stranger.
And growing was exactly what Wang Yuan wanted to do if only a lot more accelerated: “As long as they are my own choices, there isn’t anything to be worried about”
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Comoros just stood still and looked at the two crows pecking at the corpses, not knowing what to do. He didn’t dare to interrupt or urge them to hurry, his mind was already completely broken. Even when the crows were desecrating the corpses of his comrades, he couldn’t do anything but watch.
Earlier, when Dax opened his mouth after death, Comoros was already fully convinced of Negary’s existence; and now that he was afflicted with the plague, if he didn’t want to die, he could only swear total loyalty to Negary.
Furthermore, the humiliation of seeing the corpses of his comrades being devoured by animals in front of his eyes caused Comoros to be incredibly shaken. To make his mood feel a bit better, he could only make excuses to himself.
“I’m not cowardly, people just simply can’t win against a God, doing that would only bring calamity to the village. Yes, that’s right, I’m doing this for the village, I’m going the right thing. Dax resisting the messengers was the wrong thing to do, their corpses being pecked is them paying for their sins!” Comoros gradually convinced himself and subdued the guilty feelings in his heart.
While absorbing the remaining white mist from the corpses, Wang Yuan was observing the change in Comoros’ expression, so he was able to tell the general mental journey that he just went through. Wang Yuan silently but greatly praised him for this, as the more he thought that way, the more likely it was for him to stand firmly on Negary’s side. He would spread the words of Negary’s invincibility and turn into a true devout believer of Negary because doing otherwise would mean admitting that he was a despicable coward.
Even if that was the truth, who could willingly admit such a thing with peace of mind? At least, Comoros couldn’t, and that was why he had fallen completely under Wang Yuan’s control.
As he looked at Dax’s throat being ripped out by the crows, Wang Yuan couldn’t help but recall his quick thinking during that previous moment of desperation. He had used his interference force to control Dax’s vocal cords and imitated the feeling of talking according to the memories he absorbed, which was why the voice was so eerie at the beginning.
In truth, that was just Wang Yuan’s attempt at bringing a dead horse back to life1. If he hadn’t absorbed enough cold aura and caused his interference force to become stronger, it would have been a lot more difficult for him to do such a thing.