C81 (1/2)
Lu Qinan froze for a long time, her small face was deathly pale without a trace of blood, and the hand she used to hold the small blue and white bowl began to shake with too much force …
He raised his eyes in panic.
”I don't know why I got pregnant. There was no contraception so …”
Lu Qinan was currently at a loss, the panic and helplessness in her heart was written all over her face. She was afraid that if he were to see through it, he would only be able to lower his head and look at her.
”I'm sorry …”
Gu Zhongshen's eyes congealed, his heart suddenly tightened, he looked at the small ball, which had curled up as though it was afraid, and took a small bite of the bowl, lowering his eyes and apologizing.
What's wrong with her? She's just happy to have his child, but … Using such a thin and frail body, he gave birth to a small life. But now, she, who had done nothing wrong, was apologizing to him instead.
”An An.”
Gu Zhongshen looked over seriously, and forced her to raise her chin, narrowing her eyes, ”I was the one who got you pregnant, what fault do you have?”
She was slightly startled. Her delicate white fingers on her wrist retracted, and her eyes followed suit.
The man's low and hoarse voice sounded in her ears, without any undulations or other emotions, his rough fingers lightly brushed across her lips, ”Lin Qinghuan said that you will wait for me to tell my child something. Sorry I couldn't get there in time... After a moment of delay. I heard you were in a car accident when you came over. ”
Lu Qinan opened his eyes wide and took a whiff of the soft and sweet fragrance in the bowl, mixed with the mint fragrance on his body, it was extremely soothing.
”Fourth Uncle, go look for Qin Xuanman.”
She narrowed her eyes and stared at the man's rolling adam's apple. The knuckles on the hand next to her were slender and white as they slid across her wrist. ”Mhmm.”
He did not deny it, and said hoarsely after a long while.
”She committed suicide.”
There was a moment of silence.
Lu Qinan didn't react to the word ”suicide” for a long time, he only heard the man's hoarse voice from above him, ”It's a surgical operation now, he's not dead.”
He spoke coldly, as if this woman was as simple as living and dying in his eyes.
After a pause, a thick palm finally landed on her head, caressing her hair in an extremely casual manner. The man's rich voice lingered in her ears, ”Don't take her to heart, hmm?”
The voice grew gentler and softer, the deep black eyes filled with gentleness and seriousness. It caused others to have an illusion, as if he saw her as the entire world.
However, the little girl suddenly lowered her hand and giggled.
”Fourth Uncle, are you trying to trick me?”
I know that besides the past, you and Qin Xuanman have no relationship. I know that the reason why you went to see her again and again is because of her. ”It's just past friendships.”
She smiled, but there was no change in her eyes. Her fingers were tightly clenched as she looked at his tired appearance. She lowered her voice. ”I know all about it.”
”An An, don't …”
Gu Zhongshen frowned, he did not know how to comfort her. He knew that his girl was angry. He knew that this matter had once again hurt her feelings. He knew that deep down in her heart, she cared about him that much.
Silence filled the air, spreading between the two of them. The man finally stood up and touched his pocket for a cigarette. After a while, he finally put his hand down.
”She committed suicide. I went to see her and delayed my date with you. But she stabbed herself in front of me. No matter what … I can't just watch her die. Yes, we once loved each other, very, very much. At the very least, right now, I know clearly that you, Lu Qinan, are my wife! ”
”I didn't handle this matter properly. It's not that she shouldn't have appeared in our lives, but that I shouldn't have hidden it from you.”
Lu Qinan nodded, and laughed innocently and cleanly, ”So Fourth Uncle, do you want to meet her in the future? Or … For her sake, let me get rid of this child? ”
At the end of her sentence, her voice shook, and her small body curled up on the bed, her eyes red.
Gu Zhongshen's face was filled with disbelief. In her eyes, there was really fear!
”Do you think I don't want our children?”
”Fourth Uncle …”
Her face was filled with frustration and helplessness. Her fingers rested on her slender shoulder as she saw the frail appearance of the little girl.
Only the heavens knew how much he wanted a little girl like her to give birth to a soft and delicate girl. Even at night I dreamed that she was small, like she was carved out of the same mold.
The little girl's nose turned sour, and her tears finally fell uncontrollably. Her fingers pinched the center of her palm, ”Fourth Uncle, you're lying! If you want it, why do you still say that you will take away our child? ”
”In your heart, you've never wanted a child other than Bao Bao, right?!”
In his mind was always his resolute voice. As far as his eyes could see, it was the calm face of a man. His heart felt painful again, as if something sharp had stabbed into his heart. Suddenly, he felt like suffocating!
”Fourth Uncle did not, An An, Fourth Uncle did not …”
Gu Zhongshen grabbed onto her trembling body, but the little girl was so excited at this moment that she could not control herself, tears fell down her face and her vision blurred. She extended her little hand and grabbed onto the corner of his clothes, ”So, I can keep it, right? so it won't be removed, right... ”
The air suddenly became silent.
Lu Qinan's eyes were filled with hope, her small hands were grabbing tightly, her slender white fingers were pinching the collar of her shirt, but she lifted her pale little face, unwilling to let go.
She was waiting for his answer.
In that moment, Gu Zhongshen really wanted to agree to her request. He wanted her to take this child, no matter what the cost, even if it was not even a 10% chance of success.