21 Something that Shouldnst Happen 18+ (2/2)

Luckily we did it at my parents' house so they would definitely keep it a secret.

To be honest, I'm not sure if I do this because I love Hui An. I might be affected by the advice of my aunt. She advised me to learn to love my husband. However, I did more than that.

”Sorry,” Hui An's voice interrupted my thoughts. I looked at his face. He is awake.

”I can't control myself. Yesterday I drank too much wine, ”he explained. I became reminded of her kiss. There is indeed an aromatic aroma of wine.

”It is okay. After all I am your wife, ”I answered in a soft voice.

”It would be better if we did it when you fell in love with me,” he said softly. He looks regret.

”At least you know that I've never done this with anyone before this,” I tried to calm down myself because I was thinking the same thing. I hope that we do it after I truly love him.

”I never doubted Xia He,” he said seriously.

”I did cheat Huanghou and Huangtaihou with a white cloth that was given blood droplets at the Palace. However, I did it to protect your reputation. I don't doubt you, ”he said earnestly.

”I promise to be more in control of myself in future until Xia He really loves me,” he said again. I don't know what to answer.

***

”Hui An, can you play a musical instrument?” I asked my husband. Trying to break the ice between us. We haven't had a dialogue with each other since this morning. Now, both of us are on a horse-drawn carriage, heading to our Wangfu.

After we both woke up, we stayed at Yun Manor until late afternoon. Until my body feels more powerful. My mother finally found out that I spent my first night at Yun Manor. She advised me many things and asked me to understand men and their needs.

I understand the point, but it's hard for me to agree. However intimate relationships should be accompanied by love. However, after thinking about this principle, I became embarrassed.

Didn't I intend to become Concubine of Guo Wangye? Even willing to be a concubine without love? I want to hit my head if I remember my stupidity in the past.

I could not be completely angry with Hui An who forced me to do it. However, I can't cover my disappointment with him and myself who can't control our behaviour.

”I can play Guqin. However, I'm not very good at playing it. I only play it to fill my spare time,” Hui An answered my question slowly. I nod my head.

He said that he wasn't an expert at playing musical instruments. That means, I can't have high expectations. I can't force him to become an expert in just a few months.

”Why is Xia He asking about that?” Hui An's words broke my mind. I smile briefly.

”I'm thinking of a Spring banquet at the Palace in next year. I want to show something that can impress Bixia, ”I answered, looking at his face. He smiled.

”I do not want to let you down. Actually Bixia is difficult to be satisfied with the show. If we want to make him happy, then we have to make a better performance than the Istana artists, ”he expressed his opinion.

I know that what he says is true. Both of us are not artists, so it is definitely difficult to make shows that are more interesting than The Palace artists. The Palace Artists devote their time and energy to perfecting their performances. However, we only play musical instruments to fill our spare time.

”However, I want to try to do it,” I gathered my determination. Hui An held my head for a moment.

”You are right. We have to try it, ”he said earnestly. I'm happy to see his optimistic expression like mine.

”However, I want to know. Why does Xia He want to impress Bixia? ”He asked again.

”The prize,” I spoke honestly. Because I was determined not to keep anything from him.

”Prize?”

”Yes. I heard, Bixia always gave extraordinary prize to those who could impress him, ”I explained.

”Then, we must strive firmly. The Palace artists definitely gave their best performances. We can only compete with them by giving unordinary shows, ”my husband suggested.

”Unordinary?”

”Something that has never been shown by anyone in front of Bixia,” my husband gave an explanation. I nodded my head as I understood his words.

”Xia He, are you still angry about last night?” Hui An brought up the same problem again. I tried to forget about that by asking him to talk about the palace banquet. However, he reminded me again.

”A little,” I answered honestly. He sighed

”I'm sorry,” he said softly.

My tears fall down after hear his second time apologized. Inside my heart, I feel sad. I feel ashame of my self. What we do in last night is too early.

Is that I so easy to fall in someone lust? It is fine if we just share a kiss. I know he is my husband, but I feel somethink was lost. I feel like I betray my self.

He looks shocked saw my tears. He take me in his charms.

”I'm sorry. I promised to never forced you like last night,”