16 Walk Around the Wangfu (1/2)
My body feels heavy. I opened my eyes and immediately saw Xiao Junwangye's face. I remember our conversation last night. I'm sad to hear the story of his birth. I know he is sad, but pretends that he is strong.
I don't know how to reduce her sadness. I just gave him a hug. He hugged me back. I could hear his heart beat as we embrace each other. We sleep by hugging each other. Amazingly, I don't feel tight.
I pay attention to my husband's face. I can't imagine how much his sadness? From birth, he did not feel the affection of his parents. His mother died after giving birth. His father hated him because of his mother's mistake.
I imagine what if he was among all his brothers and sisters. They can call Bixia as fù huáng (Father-Emperor). Then when my husband spoke, he could not call Bixia as fù huáng.
I understand why he never appeared at the Palace Banquet. Maybe he did not feel confident because his own father did not care about his presence there. Maybe he didn't want to be sad when he saw all of his siblings get along with his father. Whereas he can't.
That is why he loves Yao Mama very much. Only Yao Mama gave him love and attention.
Now, I understand why he never appeared at the Lord's Banquet. Maybe he realized that no one would care about him. All the noble families will ignore him because they think he has no influence. They even dubbed him waste.
As for my father, he could not openly show his concern for my husband.
My husband suddenly opened his eyes. He smiled at me.
”Aifei (My Beloved Consort), are you awake?” My husband asked me and I nodded my head.
”Are you having a good dream?” He asked me while stroking my cheek.
”I'm not dreaming. What does Junwangye dream of? Is it beautiful?”I turned to ask him.
”There is no. However, if my dream was beautiful, it means nothing for me. Because reality is far more beautiful than my dream. Because in this real world, I have you, ”my husband told me. He started teasing me again. I smiled at his words.
”Where did my husband learn about praise sentences like this?” I asked him.
”Didn't I say that your father is my teacher?” He asked again. I laughed at that.
”My father doesn't know how to praise women. My mother said that my father had a cold mind and a sharp mouth. He can't make sweet words, ”I said after I finished laughing. He laughed then faced up. Look at the roof of our room.
”You are right. My Shifu (teacher) was very cold. He also rarely give me a words of praise. If he wants to praise, he will smile and clap loudly, ”my husband said to me and I immediately remembered my father's face.
”However, my father often praised Yun Jing Fei,” I said and my heart felt sad. My father is my biological father. I want him to just praise me.
”You hate your jiě jie (older sister)?” He asked me.
”I hate her? Yes. I don't like hearing my father praise her. I don't like it when my mother and younger brother praise her. I don't like to see her familiar with the servants. Then the servants praised Jing Fei excessively, ”I said frankly.
I remember how my sister easily became familiar with other people. When I took her to the Market, she easily became familiar with the merchants and shopkeepers.
That's why I don't want to take her to the royal banquet. I'm afraid that the nobles will praise her more than me, afraid that they will make friends with him then ignore me.
”She doesn't sound bad,” my husband said. I sat down immediately. I looked at his face which was staring upwards.
”I will hate you if you praise her,” I spoke firmly. However, I immediately regretted my words.
”I will not praise her. I'll just praise you, ”he said then pulled my head so that our lips touched each other.
”However, seeing you jealous like this, I'm happy,” he said after kissing me. I sighed. I got out of bed.
”Aifei is angry?” He asked me when I open the door. I turned and saw him. He didn't look panicked. He smiled at me. I know he is teasing me.
”Yes,” I said to him. He sighed and got out of bed. He walked over to me. He took me into his arms again.