Chapter 354 - Did Qin Sheng Leave? (1/2)
From Qin Changan’s perspective, of course, what he had done made sense. Firstly, he needed to protect Qin Sheng; Secondly, he intended to train Qin Sheng; Thirdly, he needed to make sure what kind of man Qin Sheng was, and so on. Though Qin Sheng was his son and among all the men across several generations in the Qin Family, never had that kind of hopeless crumb ever shown up, he still needed to keep testing Qin Sheng as time went by rather than taking risks blindly. After all, the Qin Family was rich and vast and had a strong foundation, and all the generations of the Qin Family had sacrificed so many things to achieve their current position with great difficulty, so Qin Changan had to be prudent and watchful.
However, in Qin Sheng’s opinion, he simply could not accept all that Qin Changan had done for him, which were also unfair to him. What Qin Changan had done completely made Qin Sheng’s achievements and experience over the past several years mean nothing. Originally, he had thought that he had handled many things on his own with his capabilities and he had achieved something because of his dumb luck and his grandfather’s favorable affinities sometimes. However, in the end, he found out how foolish he had been. He was nothing but somebody else’s puppet. Everything about him had been set up in advance, which was like an online game whose plots had been coded in advance.
To the kind of man like Qin Sheng, who looked seemingly amiable but turned out to be proud and arrogant, how could he accept a result like this? How could he be willing to be somebody else’s puppet and allow himself to be in the power of others? Besides, speaking of Qin Changan’s so-called protection of him, he had just stood by and watched him being tortured back and forth by various tycoons. After that, Qin Changan had been leading a wondering life while he was suffering from the wrongdoings and torture. If he had not been lucky and Zhuang Zhou had not made it at the last critical moment, he would have died on Mount Jiuhua for real.
Besides, Qin Sheng also thought of the thing that happened in Huang Mei Town. He thought, “Didn’t you say that you would protect me? If so, why had you just stood by and watched me reaching a dead end? Could it be the so-called protection you had mentioned? You said you had protected me previously, right? Why had I seized a slim chance of survival simply because of my brother, who had swapped his life for mine? Why had you not shown up earlier? If you had done so, my brother would still be alive. Do you know how I feel? If you were in my situation and you had to go on living at the cost of other people’s lives, you would feel guilty and self-condemned for your entire life.”
Sometimes, Qin Sheng sincerely hoped that it was himself, not Qingyang, who had died that day because only by thinking in such a way would he not feel guilty. Consequently, during this period, he had been forcing himself not to think about the thing that had taken place that evening, but had been using his initiative to escape from reality because that kind of feeling was full of suffering.
As a result, Qin Sheng hated Qin Changan very much for what he had done for him. If Qin Changan had reconciled with him in the beginning, Qin Sheng might not have had any problems with that. After all, Qin Changan was his biological father. However, Qin Sheng simply could not put up with what Qin Changan had done. He would rather pay a heavy cost in the end for everything he had done, no matter what it was. Even if he would die by doing so, he would think that he got what he deserved. However, he was not willing to be the puppet of others, who would end up as the poor leading actor in The Truman Show.
Qin Changan directly left without ever paying attention to what Qin Sheng was thinking. Only Qin Sheng remained in the living room. At this moment, he was in a complex mood. There were various kinds of thoughts, which were in a terrible mess in his mind.
Qin Sheng knew that as his father, there were justifiable reasons for Qin Changan to have done so. However, Qin Sheng was another independent entity who had his own reasoning and belief. In this case, their respective rules for the game clashed with one another. They would certainly confront each other.
Qin Sheng was astounded by what Qin Changan had said. He had no choice but to stand there, feeling confused. He didn’t know whether what he was thinking about was right or not. However, he could not accept Qin Changan’s explanation in such a short period, feeling extremely paradoxical and annoyed.
Qin Ran had been waiting outside the entrance of the main hall, fearing that this father and son couple would quarrel with each other. At first, it had been quiet inside. However, nobody expected that they would end up quarreling with each other in the end. Qin Ran could not help feeling nervous. In any case, of course, the last scene she wanted to see was that the relationship between the father and the son became too strained, who had been separated from each other for a long time. Otherwise, she would feel upset about it.
However, if Qin Ran were asked to choose between Qin Changan and Qin Sheng, of course, she would choose to support Qin Sheng without hesitation because Qin Changan had someone to care about him but Qin Sheng had nobody.
As a result, when she saw Qin Changan walking out, she directly stood in Qin Changan’s way and said acrimoniously, “Can’t you just treat him well?”
Qin Changan was not angry at all. It was OK for him if they just could not understand him. After all, they were his children. Never would parents blame their children. Consequently, Qin Changan said calmly, “Ran Ran, you will know my difficulty in the future.”
For no reason, when Qin Ran heard this sentence, she sensed that her father had aged all of a sudden. The way her father had spoken made her feel sad. Consequently, she did not know how she could respond to him. Originally, she had been in the right and self-confident. But she became soft-tempered in an instant.
Qin Changan smiled gently and walked by her. He needed to go to the kitchen to see how the lunch preparation was going on there.
A while later, Qin Ran came to her senses, smiled bitterly, and said nothing at all. Though all the family members had been reunited, it would take them a long time to get along with each other.
As Qin Ran went into the side hall, Qin Sheng was still sitting there, feeling dazzled. Feeling somewhat sorry for him, Qin Ran walked to his front, held his hands, and said, “Don’t overthink too much.”
It was not until Qin Sheng sensed the warmth in his hands that he shook his head somewhat helplessly. He didn’t know what he should do and had no choice but to say confusedly, “Sister, I want to find somewhere to rest myself quietly for a few days. I am somewhat tired.”
This was the first time that Qin Sheng had said that he was tired. Previously, however many hardships and wrongdoings he had suffered, he had overcome them strongly and went on with his life. However, what had happened today shocked him too much. He did not know how to tell right from wrong. Besides that, he did not know how he should deal with this issue.
Qin Ran was not hesitant. Instead, she agreed to Qin Sheng’s request as she replied, “All right. It is quiet in the surroundings of Yanqi Lake. The scenery there is also good. I will take you there tomorrow so that you can meditate quietly there. I know that you have been leading a difficult life over the past few years.”
Qin Sheng replied quite straightforwardly, “I want to leave right away.” He did not know how he could face his father, Qin Changan. He really could not tell whether what Qin Changan had done was right or not.
Qin Ran was at a loss. She did not know how she could reply to Qin Sheng. After all, Qin Sheng had just come here and seen his biological father today. It seemed that it would not be good for him if he just left directly in this way.
As a result, it was not until Qin Ran thought for a while that she said, “Qin Sheng, listen to me. However contradicted you were to each other, anyway, he is your father. Whatever he did, he had no ill intentions toward you. To say the least, you just reconciled with each other after so many years, so if you just leave, he will feel terrible. At least we, as family members, can have a reunion dinner together, right?”