Chapter 141 Disappear Once Again (1/2)

Su Qin drove straight to the Bund with Qin Sheng. Recalling the first day in Shanghai, she accompanied him to the Bund and they walked around hand in hand for two hours. Qin Sheng was so excited and even shouted at the Huangpu River, ”Shanghai, I'm here!”

Su Qin did not find it tiring at all. Perhaps it was because she was with the man that she loved the most. Back then, they were filled with eagerness towards life. They thought about their future together and reminisced over an era together. It was a pity that they did not last long.

After the car was parked, the two strolled along the bank of Huangpu River in the Bund. It was a winter night. But no matter how extreme the cold wind was, the Bund was never short of tourists. No one knew how many men came here to chase after their dreams. And no one knew how many lives were changed at this moment.

”I heard Hao Lei say that you went back to Xi'an during New Year's?” The winter wind caused Su Qin's hair to fly, yet it was a pretty mess. She was only wearing a turtleneck sweater and a gray woolen coat. The weather was more or less cold.

Qin Sheng nodded silently. ”Yes, Auntie Wang's birthday is on New Year's Day, so Xin Xin and I went back to accompany her.”

”Is Auntie Wang's body still okay? How's Uncle Lin? I haven't visited them in a long while.” Su Qin lowered her head slightly, tucked her hair and gave a small smile. She had two small charming dimples when she smiled. During high school, countless boys chased after this smile. But all of their efforts could not compare to a simple gaze from Qin Sheng.

Qin Sheng took a deep breath to act natural and casual. He replied, ”They're doing well. Thanks for taking care of them when I wasn't there, especially Xin Xin. She told me that you went to visit her often.”

”Why are you thanking me? I'm friends with them too; this is what I should do. I also treat Xin Xin as my sister,” Su Qin said in a plain voice.

Qin Sheng smiled bitterly. ”No matter what, I still want to thank you.”

”If you really want to thank me, you can treat me to a meal next time,” said Su Qin with a feminine smile. She still could not let go of Qin Sheng. If she did, not bothering him would be the best way for them to get along. But their relationship spanned across six years, the word 'let go' is made up of only 11 strokes. How easy could it be?

Qin Sheng promised right away. ”No problem, you can choose anything you want to eat.”

”I thought you would reject me,” Su Qin said in surprise.

Qin Sheng found it funny. ”Why would I reject you? There are countless men who want to take you to dinner. I am beyond honored.”

”Don't say that, I don't like it,” Su Qin said with a little anger in her tone. If other men said that, she would not have felt anything. But the man standing in front of her was Qin Sheng. She used to be his ultimate close lover, they did everything together. He said that on purpose to lengthen the distance between them.

Qin Sheng did not notice at all. He said it subconsciously. He quickly apologized. ”Sorry.”

”Qin Sheng, I feel that you're always avoiding me and you're not willing to face me. Or do you still feel hatred towards me, for breaking up with you back then?” Su Qin asked. Today, she went to find him because she wanted to clear many things up.

Qin Sheng shook his head and said, ”No, why would I hate you? It's all in the past. I accept all the things that have happened wholeheartedly. You have your life and I don't want to disturb your peaceful life with my appearance.”

”Haha, is that so?” Su Qin smiled bitterly, ”But your appearance has already disrupted my life. Qin Sheng, I regret my rash decision back then. I regret that I wasn't by your side when you needed me the most. I always think about this and have always been blaming myself. For the past two years, I was always looking for you, but I hear nothing about you. Do you know how much I miss you, Qin Sheng?”

As she spoke to the end of the sentence, her eyes were already red. Yes, she could not forget Qin Sheng, she really couldn't. They were together for six years. If she could forget him, she would not have been single for the past two years. She would have been married and gave birth to children, since there were many people chasing after her.

”Su Qin, stop saying those things. You are a good girl, I thank God for letting me have you once,” Qin Sheng said sincerely.

Su Qin was stubborn. ”I want to ask you, have you thought of me in the past two years?”

”Yes I did. Initially, I could not stop thinking about you. But I tell myself that we've already broken up. You deserve to have your own happiness and my road ahead has just begun. I don't know what lies ahead. So I tell myself, let her go,” Qin Sheng replied honestly. People are not God, who could forget a woman that he had loved for six years so easily?

But time is a medicine that can heal all things. No matter how unforgettable the relationship, it will all be erased by time eventually and fade away slowly.

”So you let go just like that?” Su Qin felt her heart ache as she asked.

Qin Sheng did not know what to say. He did not want to hurt her feelings. After all, he had loved her deeply before. Even seeing her shed a tear pained his heart.

”I got it,” Su Qin gritted her teeth and said. Qin Sheng's silence was the answer. However, she was unwilling to give up just like that. She lay aside her pride and said, ”But I can't, why can't I just let go? Qin Sheng, I still love you deeply. I want to go back to the past; I want to start over again.”

After which, Su Qin hugged him directly. Qin Sheng's heart melted. It was such a familiar feeling, but it felt so foreign today.