Chapter 1679 (1/2)

Xia Yu, I hope this is not my first letter to you, nor the last one. But I also contradictory want you to know the content, but also afraid you know. Because I'm sorry for you, I shouldn't have married you, which makes you very painful and may make you sad all your life.

All this is because of my selfishness, just hurt you.

There is a truth that I dare not tell you. But if I die, you are the one who has the most right to know the truth.

A few years ago, I was on a mission that almost failed and almost died. In order to let me speak, the enemy used a lot of means to torture me. Among them, I was injected with a lot of poison. The whole life is better than death. But when I was dying, I was lucky to be saved. Can poison ~ product but torment me, still want my life, and at that time, no one can save me.

At that time, the only chance to survive was to inject a prohibited drug. As for what it was, I can't tell you. But the result is, I became a walking corpse without feelings.

I don't know what is happiness, what is happiness, but also the feeling of no love. Without seven emotions and six desires, I would not be able to rely on drugs, and my body would be saved.

But since then, my soul has died.

Every day I don't know what the meaning of living is. I have to constantly carry out the task and restrict myself with standard justice and morality. Only when I carry out the task can I have the illusion that I am alive.

Until one day, I met you.

You say you want to marry me, you like me so much, no matter who you are, you can see it. But as anyone can see, I don't like you.

In fact, I do not like you, my heart even want to be sad. Because I don't know what it's like to like, I can't even respond to a girl like you.