143 143 Sleepless nights and warmth (1/2)
That night, Zhou closed his eyes in bed and never visited although he waited for the sleeper to visit him, just laying quietly.
I usually like sleeping, but I can't even see the toe of a sleeper trying to sleep all day. Oddly enough, I was blind, or not sleepy.
For some reason, I thought maybe it was because I met East Castle today.
He was once a friend and one of the causes that tormented Zhou, but he had no more obsession with them, no more lumps, no more shards in his chest.
I mean, it's refreshing to meet you, I'm even feeling a little emotional.
I felt an indescribable sense of accomplishment when I met and spent midday realizing how supportive I had been and grew up.
I just can't seem to sleep like this, so I wake up and put on my slippers and go out on the veranda trying to get some air outside to change my mood.
As soon as I opened the window, the slightly uncomfortable air greeted me when I was cooling. The temperature is high in the summer, though, and it's a tropical night all the time, so I can't help but be hot.
Still, the air outside was clear, and the stars look beautiful without being inhibited by lights in residential areas. It will be enough time to get to sleep and bored.
As I indulged in the quiet space and the brilliance of the stars as I kept my body on the fence, I accidentally heard the window sash rub.
If I look back at the sound I heard from the other room connected on the veranda, not from my room, I'm letting myself peek into the halfway house so that midday, when I put together my one-piece bedtime outfit, can peek at this one.
”... midday, were you still awake”
I didn't think you were awake.
When my family went to sleep late at night, and since I have a regular life at midday, I said I would go to bed before the date was changed, so even though I was awake, I couldn't expect to come out on the veranda.
”I can't sleep. Zhou Kun is the one who hasn't slept yet.”
”Mmm.... there's been a lot going on”
”... right”
Zhou laughed bitterly, ”Oh no,” as he lay his eyes slightly down on the words as he went out on the veranda at midday.
”I'm not dragging you around, am I? It's just that I grew up with a lot of emotion.”
What worried me for a moment in the middle of the day is a worry.
Zhou doesn't think anything of him anymore, and he just feels how he's changed. There's no shadow of him there. He won't threaten me anymore.
I told him to laugh. Midday seemed like a relief to the perimeter, with a small grin.
”Hehe.... Zhou-kun is stronger and bigger. He's grown so tall since junior high.”
”Mm-hmm. Well, it stretches from one to 20 centimeters.”
”You've grown so much”
”Right.”
Zhou has changed. The same goes for the back length, but there's something about the mind and the way things are viewed this past year.
Now that I think about it, I look at my old self as a busy man who was badly loving and sloping. I can't deny it at all because of them, but it would have been hard for him to get involved without being cute.
I think the current circumference is calmer than before.
The reason for that calm is the beloved girl next door.
”Zhou Kun is right, Zhou Kun has grown. Mind and body.”
”... right”
”You're confident, aren't you?
”Oh.”
”I see. If you lose confidence, I'll support you.”
”As much as I appreciate it, really.”
In the middle of the day I smile calmly and look up at the sky with my hands next door to the fence, the loving smell comes in.
He leans next door like this and laughs at me. Stay on your side and support me. It encourages me. A difficult and honorable being who wanted me to be next door was asexually loving.
”... hey midday”
”Yes?”
”... I want to touch”
”Huh?”
To the abrupt words, midday turns slowly this way.
To the look of surprise accounting for the majority, Zhou stared into the puzzled mid-day eyes, not willing to correct what he was saying while feeling ashamed of himself.
”... I'm in the mood to touch you at midday, but I don't think so”
I wanted to touch her asexually.
I wanted to feel her warmth like, merciful and supportive of me. I wanted to bite that I was on your side.
Staring straight at the perimeter, the caramel colored eyes sway, then lay down their eyes shyly.
”... I can't”
To the words returned small, Zhou felt something warmer on his chest again.
Reach out in the middle of the day while chewing on what is accepted.
However, I was also hesitant to hold him on the veranda, so the place I touched was the palm.
Fine, still take the hand that leads you to strongly support Zhou so that you can walk with him, and invite him into Zhou's private room.
It's somewhat cooler than the area where Zhou lives alone, but still cools at tropical nights, so when I put him in the room, the air picked him up.
Let midday sit in bed while quietly closing the window because it's time to stay up late.
I just had no other intention of having a place to sit without a couch, but as soon as I let it sit, midday was what I couldn't help but strengthen my body and look at this one, so I laughed.
”Because I won't do anything”
”Yes, sir”
”Expected?
”Well, that can't be happening.”
”That's what makes it so manly complicated.”
”Eh.”
”I'm kidding.... because now, I just want to touch it at midday”
I don't intend to do anything that would have cautioned me at midday for a moment. I'm going to wait until midday is ready to accept it and want it, and I didn't want to get it until I forced myself to.
If you slowly turn your hand around the back of midday when you finally get rid of the tension from your body, midday will turn your hand around your back and hug you back the same way.
Softness, a sweet smell accustomed to sniffing and indescribable happiness fill my breasts with twitching. I held him tight to indulge in the middle of the day, realizing once again the thoughts that brought him up as dear.
He also narrows his eyes comfortably at midday in his arms.
Happiness, I haven't spoken to you, but I'm sure you'll feel the same way at midday as Zhou because he seeps a fuzzy grin into his mouth and releases a calm air.
(... I like it)