65 65 Angels monologue and tears (1/2)

Invite midday home and let it sit on the couch.

The weak grin seemed to melt and disappear if the wind blew in at midday, and the circumference lowered its hips while holding the midday hand moved the place from wrist to palm to wrap it up.

When I gripped it to wrap it up, my eyebrow butt lowered to heh.

”... it's a boring story, will you listen”

I cut it out like that at midday when it was about enough about the room around me.

”My parents didn't marry me because they loved me. I'll lay low on the details, but I only got married in agreement with family circumstances and interests.”

We talk quietly at midday, but it would be the reason for marriage that we don't see much in modern Japan.

Normally, I like to marry, and I thought it would be a little longer ago, although it is impossible to marry with unanimity of interest.

She's probably an upper-class person, so that parent is naturally an upper-class person. I guess there's nothing I can do for that reason... but still, it was hard to believe around.

”So... the truth is, it didn't seem like I was going to make any kids. I just made it through a mistake overnight. I just have no choice but to feed him financially because he's born. I guess you never meant to raise me.”

”He said he wasn't going to grow it.”

”... those people rarely came back. I'm just using it as an accommodation when I get back.”

You haven't really seen your parents' faces or anything since you were a kid, and at midday, when you spilled them small, you also look grumpy.

”I don't remember being a parent. My raised parents are practically housekeepers. Both of you, make a mistress outside and take it that way. I only give you the money and let it go. I don't need it. Because no matter how hard I tried, no matter how good she was, she wouldn't look at me.”

Therefore, I finally truly understood how to behave as a good child (angel) at midday.

At midday, I wanted my parents to look at me a little bit.

If you were a good girl, you might keep an eye on yourself, you might praise me - I kept acting with such pale expectations, losing my time stopping and now I am.

Is it really up to a few possibilities that I still don't stop, or did I have to wear a mask because I didn't want you to touch yourself on the inside?

I didn't know which, but at least I wouldn't be wearing it if I wanted to.

”In the end, you don't see me. Whether they grew up beautifully, could study, could exercise, or could do chores, those people never looked at me.... I must be an idiot for hanging in there, even though it's useless”

Even though it doesn't pay off, he said.

My chest tightened to a mourning filled with giving up.

”Because I'm here, those people can't get a divorce. I don't want to pick up either. Make your mistress's family pay attention. I can't count on my grandparents. That's why you're waiting until I leave college. If you stand alone, the rest has little to do with it.”

”It's...”

”... you were shocked by the boulder when you said you didn't need a child, facing face to face... Unexpectedly, he abandoned himself when he rowed a blanco in the rain.”

I understood why I was in a rainy park at midday after a few months.

That was when my parents poked at me with words that I had no heart for, and I just got there scratched and wandered away.

I don't have a place, because I recognized that, you know - you had a lost, young, anxious look.

No one asked for help, couldn't swallow the poked word, just didn't know what to do, and I reached that place and was alone.

I just imagined that, with a slight iron flavour spread in my mouth.

Apparently he was biting his lips unconsciously, with a small pain and a unique flavor in his mouth. It must have been so irrational, so unknowingly angry.

”... I wish I hadn't given birth if I was in trouble”

The really small whisper made him stop all the movement by poking the pain as if he had just punched a pile into his chest listening.

So far, I remember so much anger that my head turns white on the midday fruit parents that I'm making them say it at midday.

I grew up so delicate and weak because I didn't get a single love from my parents. As a result of acting strong on the surface and continuing to cry on the inside, no one could ask for help at midday.

If you strip off the mask of a good boy, even the slightest wind will appear as if it's going to collapse and disappear.

How can we hunt him down so far?

I wanted to ask you absurdly, but the people who abandoned midday are not here.

Besides, I don't know what to do.

I'm angry at the severity of the home environment, but Zhou is someone else at midday.

I don't think someone else can stick their neck in a midday family situation. It could make the situation unnecessarily worse. If you think about the possibility of darkness and more midday scratches, you can't do anything around you.

However, if I let it go like this, it's going to disappear to dissolve in the air - Zhou puts the blanket that was on his side out of his head at midday.

He hid the shadow to his face, then put the confused midday in his arms.

The first body I ever held myself to is very luxurious and unreliable. The more force you force at all, the easier it seems to break.

Hold tight the body that has endured without leaning against anyone, Zhou envelops midday.

”Oh, Amen...?

”... I think I know why you grew up with this personality”

”Isn't it cute?”

”Chicken.... that I am patient and don't want others to see me weak”

I had to put up with it. Because once you make a weak noise, it will definitely break.

Your help seemed to take care of midday, but still it was only someone else who was employed and not someone who could help midday.

In a situation where no one could ask for help, she would have been so good at faking herself because she continued to endure one.

”... nothing, I'm not going to talk to your family. I'm not going to stick my neck in someone else's home.”

Zhou is someone else. You can't touch something delicate called family.

But it's not the same thing not to support midday.

”... I'll pretend not to look. If you're gonna cry, you're gonna cry. You're just gonna catch my breath.”

Truth is, I don't want to make you cry.

But if you keep accumulating like this, one day she'll break.

So I wanted you to cry. I wanted everything I put up with to spit out.

If it's painful, I want you to say it's painful, if it's lonely, I want you to say it's lonely. Then Zhou stays by her side and listens.

Even if there's nothing she can do about her situation, Zhou can do enough to take the pain of midday.

It was a tricky thing and so on, but midday moved in the arm of the circumference, and buried his face in the chest of the circumference, so it all disappeared.

”... will you please help me”

”I don't know because I haven't seen it.”

”... well, just for a moment... lend me”

Zhou did not reply to her whimpering in a trembling voice, just letting her put the blanket from her head go deep again and hold her unreliable back tight.

Eventually, I start hearing little whimpers.