956 Three Days Lef (1/2)
Long Jinjing didn't reply. A soft, sad smile lifted the corner of her lips but the effect didn't look pleasant. It made her appear more defeated instead.
”Jinjing, don't fall in love with me,” he told her next.
”I already fell in love with you! I tried so hard, Nikolai! So hard! Do you understand?! I also didn't want this to happen! I did my best to…to suppress my f-feelings for you…but whenever we spend time together, I just found myself falling in love with you a little deeper.”
It was clear that he didn't know how to respond to her confession and his lack of response cut through her. It hurt so much but she already expected this from the moment she realized that she had fallen in love with him.
”You call yourself a bad man, a monster, but to me, you're none of those things. You're not exactly a saint but…you always treated me as someone who's…who's d-desirable. And this is the first time that I felt this way, that I'm a woman who can make a man d-desire me so much.”
”Because you're a desirable woman, Jinjing,” he whispered. ”Very desirable.”
She bit her lower lip and felt her painful heart still skipping a beat despite being broken by the man standing in front of her. What could be more pathetic than this?
Then he added, ”You're a beautiful and sexy woman. Smart, too. I just hope that you develop more confidence in yourself and stop always putting yourself down. You don't deserve to mistreat yourself like that.”
”See!” she exclaimed at him. ”How are you a monster? You always try to boost my confidence whenever I...I drag myself down. But aren't you doing the same thing? You always call yourself a bad man, a monster, when it's clear that you're none of those. You're really not!”
His eyes softened a little but his overall expression didn't change. It still looked complicated with his inability to deal with her sudden confession and the entire situation. He also didn't say anything that would reveal whether he agreed or disagreed with her claim that he wasn't a bad man and a monster.
”I'm sorry for suddenly confessing my…my love for you.”
He scowled again. ”I already told you to never—”
He didn't know how to reply.
She tried smiling in an effort to show him that everything was fine and that he had nothing to worry about but failed. Her poor attempt of a smile only made her look miserable, so she just stopped trying.
”So…let's just break up, okay?”
He turned and suddenly moved to punch the half-wall separating the living room and the kitchen. But before his fist could reach the wall, he stopped and bumped it lightly instead. Although he felt consumed by a frustrating rage, he still managed to remember that this unit was Long Jinjing's. He couldn't just damage it. If he did, she might become even more upset with him.
The need to vent out his anger, to break something, to destroy whatever he got his hands on, gushed through him but he suppressed it with all his might. It was so damn difficult but even he knew that this wasn't the time to let out his inner monster and wreck everything in his path. He still needed to figure out a way to fix the situation with Long Jinjing.
”Not yet,” he hissed.
”What?”
”We're not breaking up yet.”
”What do you mean?”