825 Not a Good Man (1/2)
”What I mean is that I don't think that you'll beat me up,” Long Jinjing whispered.
Lu Zihao scowled. ”Hell no. Although I'm not exactly a saint, I won't beat you up. Only weak, insecure, scum men beat up women without any valid reason. Besides, you're my woman now during these thirty days. Like hell I'll beat up my own woman.”
She nodded and smiled at his words. ”That's what I mean. So I'm not afraid of you, Mr. Lu—I mean, Nikolai.”
He leaned forward and nuzzled her jaw while his hands fondled her waist. ”But you shouldn't trust me, Jinjing.”
Frowning, she leaned back. ”Why not?”
”I'm not a good man.”
She pursed her lips. ”I don't see the world as purely black and white. Every individual has their good and bad points. You're not perfect. I'm not perfect either. Nobody in this living world is perfect and whoever claims to be one is a liar. Even my sister Xiulan was a…uhm, let's say a 'wild' child when we were younger but look at her now. She has become such an amazing person and one of the most generous people I know.”
Lu Zihao didn't speak but observed her while she continued talking.
”Nikolai, even though what we have between us is only lust, the fact that you promised to give me respect as an official girlfriend is already enough to make me see you as a good man. Yes, you're extremely ferocious in bed but there are also times like right now that you're very gentle with me. That tells me that you know how to treat a woman well if you really want to.”
She wrapped her arms around his neck. ”I don't know why you don't see yourself as a good man but I'll only believe what I see with my own eyes. I'll make my own decisions on who to trust. I can't say that I trust you fully right now, but I trust that you're someone who won't beat me up or treat me like trash. And most importantly, my sister adores you and treats you like a real brother. It makes me jealous sometimes because I want to be closer to her as a sibling but I'm not complaining because our relationship has improved a lot. I'm very happy that we're now in a better place as sisters. That's why my sister's trust in you is enough for me to feel assured of your credibility.”
Silence.
”Uhm….”
”Jinjing.”
”Y-yes?”
He looked at her straight in the eyes. ”You are a good woman.”
She flushed and felt shy.
His words made her frown again. She opened her mouth to speak but he pressed a finger on her lips to prevent her from doing so.
”But don't worry. During these thirty days, you're my woman so I'll treat you right.”
She nodded and hugged him by the neck, not wanting him to see that her eyes had watered because of his words.
”Nikolai…”