819 Don’t Expect Romance (1/2)

”You may not think much of me except for a convenient woman to…to f-fuck when you get the urge, but I believe that I deserve to ask this much when you told me to state my terms,” Long Jinjing said.

Lu Zihao frowned but still remained silent and let her continue talking.

With teary eyes, she forced herself to look straight at Lu Zihao's eyes for the first time tonight. ”I don't need your love or anything hopeless like that, Mr. Lu. I know that it's impossible between us, anyway. I'm not that desperate for a man either. After all, I'm still young and I have time. Mr. Lu, all I want is respect! That's all I'm asking for. Respect.”

She looked up at the ceiling and blinked rapidly to prevent herself from embarrassing herself any further by crying like a baby.

”All I want is respect,” she repeated in a whisper. ”Not only from you, Mr. Lu. But from other people as well who might discover that we're sleeping with each other. And most importantly, I want respect for myself. I don't think I'll be able to look at myself with respect if I allow myself to…to…to become your personal slut!”

”You are not a slut,” he told her in a too calm, almost scary tone. ”Far from it. And trust me, I know. I've fucked many other sluts and they're nothing like you. I also never fucked any of them in more than one meeting.”

Despite her current emotional state, she couldn't help but chuckle at his words. ”That makes me feel a little better, I guess. Thanks.”

She smiled, although deep inside, she felt uncomfortable confirming that he had indeed slept with a lot of women before. And with sluts, too. At least, he didn't discriminate.

He grunted at her thanks. ”This is the first time I'm talking this much to a woman I've bedded and planning to bed again. I don't usually like wasting my time with words and prefer to go straight to foreplay and fucking.”

”You're the one who wanted to negotiate with me.”

”That's because you won't let me fuck you again.” He sighed and finally released her. Then he ran his fingers through his hair and sighed again.

Finally free, she attempted to put some distance between them but he caught her again before she could move. Not really wanting to struggle against his hold, she decided to sit there beside him on the couch and allow him to hold her arm.

”Jinjing, do you also want to fuck me again?” he asked, activating his wickedly seductive voice.

”Don't lie to me,” he said.

”I…” She bit her lower lip and avoided looking at him again. ”Yes.”

”Say it.”

Her face and neck were burning hot in embarrassment but she still replied, ”Yes, I want to f-fuck you again.”

He groaned and pulled her into his arms before attempting to kiss her but she covered his mouth with a hand before his lips could touch hers.

”My terms first, Mr. Lu,” she reminded him. ”I may want to…to have sex with you again but that doesn't mean that I have to.”

He let her go and didn't reply.

A wry smile appeared on her face. She thought that his silence equalled refusal. Well, it wasn't really surprising that he would refuse her demanding terms. She never expected him to agree in the first place, anyway. However, she still had to lay down her terms clearly to him for the sake of her self-respect and the need to not make the same mistakes as her mother did.

Just having the courage to tell him her exact conditions was already enough to make her a little proud of herself. She swore never to regret her decision. This was for the sake of her dignity as a woman.

Whether Lu Zihao agreed to her terms or not wouldn't make her feel like a failure. Not at all. Why should she, anyway? She wasn't the one who started this negotiation of terms in the first place.