C105 (2/2)
Xia Ying didn't know what she had been hesitating for, she probably wanted to avoid him. However, thinking back to the matters regarding Gu Yi and Chen Feng, she felt extremely furious in her heart. She was actually at a loss on what to do.
After packing up, he went out the door, and subconsciously glanced at the place where Xue Minghuang was standing a moment ago, it was already empty, he secretly heaved a sigh of relief, then turned to return to 1505, but suddenly was pulled back by a huge force. There was a faint smell of tobacco, and Xia Ying immediately knew who it was.
What did it mean? Although there was still a trace of reluctance in her heart, Xia Ying still used all of her strength and pushed the person who was hugging him away. Although she drank, he still clearly knew that she could not do it. She had always done well in this aspect.
Initially, Xia Ying had thought that she would use even more force to hold onto this hug, but he did not, and Xia Ying was slightly surprised, and was actually able to push him off balance and into the wall. Xia Ying clearly knew, he did not drink, and her aura was very fresh.
Looking at Xue Minghuang's lowered eyes which were leaning against the wall, Xia Ying really couldn't understand. She only wanted to turn around and escape quickly, but Xue Minghuang had still grabbed onto his arm. He did not use much strength, but it was enough to stop Xia Ying.
”What are you doing?” Xia Ying lowered her head and looked at the slender and fair fingers on her wrist. Struggling to push him away, she could only feel that the other party was using more and more strength.
Xue Minghuang raised his head, looked at Xia Ying, and in the light, his expression could not be seen clearly, but his eyes were still abnormally calm. Staring at Xia Ying, he seemed to be at a loss, and said softly, ”I also do not know what I want to do …”
Looking at his expression and hearing this unclear statement, Xia Ying thought about everything that she had done to Chen Feng and felt extremely furious. She suddenly reached out and waved away the hand Xue Minghuang was holding him with, but she didn't know where she got the strength from. At this moment, she only wanted to make this matter clear.
”Xue Minghuang! Don't go crazy, come at me if you have anything to say, don't use any underhanded methods, who do you think you are insulting?! ” Xia Ying knew that her tone wasn't good. The anger she accumulated all these years now only wanted to vent it out, and everything she said would be bad, if it was nice, she would have ignored it long ago.
As Xue Minghuang listened to Xia Ying's accusation, he did not understand the meaning behind it and only felt that it was extremely ear-piercing. He was indeed crazy, and only then did he want to continue being crazy, but Xia Ying's words seemed to have cleared her mind by quite a bit, and she still did not want to give up. She asked, ”What did I do?”
Finally, he added, ”You know me so well?” He was extremely helpless, when had he, Xue Minghuang, ever begged anyone so lowly? Regardless of the truth or what he saw, he felt that he was the one who did it. Really …
”Why wouldn't I admit to what I have done?” Xue Minghuang, I have really seen through you! From then on, you will walk your path, and I will cross my path. Isn't that great? What do you want from me?! Don't you think that those tricks you used behind the scenes felt very childish? ”
Xue Minghuang roughly knew this, and it was probably for the things that Jing Feng had done before. Turns out that in Xia Ying's heart, he was already such an unorthodox person, yet he didn't even have that little bit of trust? No, Xue Minghuang already knew that, from start to finish, Xia Ying had never trusted him. What were they hoping for?
From the garden at the farm to the words ”I'm sorry” on the cruise, he should have already known that Xia Ying had never trusted him in the slightest. However, he had not given up until now.
Xia Ying saw that he did not say anything, and was depressed in her heart: ”What are you trying to do? I'm asking you, what do you want? ”
Xue Minghuang suddenly felt very, very tired. That feeling of being powerless involuntarily arose, to the point where he was unable to say a single word to refute her. A person who had never believed in himself, to the extent that he was afraid that even if Xue Minghuang tried to explain himself, it would all be unnecessary.
He walked past Xia Ying with an indifferent expression. This time, even if it was just this one time, Xue Minghuang still wanted to retrieve a little of the pathetic dignity that belonged to him. He did not look back, nor did he even look at her. He only swore to himself that if he could do it again, he would not be so silent.
Since you think I'm that kind of person, do you need me to be more active with you? Xue Minghuang still did not say these words out loud. He was tired, tired, everything, was about to end here!
His tone was extremely flat, but actually, what he feared the most was that when they were arguing, the other party would use such a tone that did not care about it. It did not sound like someone who was angry to the extreme, but a calm statement that had the greatest killing power.
Xia Ying looked at Xue Minghuang's calm and indifferent expression as he walked past him, and then he suddenly laughed out loud, that's right, who am I? What am I to him? How laughable, he actually thought that he was someone who held some importance in his heart, which was why he was seeking revenge. It turned out that he was just being sentimental, ridiculous, ridiculous!
Xia Ying walked back along the long path by herself. She only smiled and tears flowed down her face, she hated herself for being so cowardly and useless, and only hated herself for not being able to pull away with such indifference and coldness.
In that moment, she seemed to understand that in these five years, she had truly loved him and hated herself to the extreme. Even though she did not want to admit it, only wanting to keep on lying to herself like this, there were many things that she could not deny even if she did not admit it.