Chapter 174 (2/2)

Lin Ziyu patted her on the shoulder, tried to give her some comfort, and said softly, ”after the car accident, you left. Where did you go?”

Ya Jing kept shaking her head and choked, ”I left him...”

”Yajing...”

”I left him, I didn't save him, I didn't care about him, but left selfishly. On that rainy day, he looked at me helplessly and watched me leave.” Yajing seemed to think of what happened after the car accident. Her inner guilt made it difficult for her to breathe and breathe at the moment.

Lin Ziyu held her hand tightly, kept explaining and said, ”you didn't save him. You wanted to save him. You wanted to find someone to save him, so you left. Do you remember?”

Yajing stretched out her hand to hold her head and cried out in pain. Then, she seemed to think of all things. She leaned limply on the sofa, and tears gushed out of her eyes. The things she wanted to forget were not unbearable, but beautiful.

”Do you remember?”

”I wanted to find someone to save him, but when I went back, he was dead. He looked at me like that and left before his eyes. He thought I gave up him, but I didn't. I wanted to save him, but I was late, so even when he died, he thought in his heart that I gave up him.” Yajing finally remembered those forgotten past events, She thought they were unbearable, but now they are both sweet and painful.

Lin Ziyu patted her shoulder gently, and her eyes couldn't help moistening. Yajing finally remembered everything now, but her appearance now is more worrying than before.

”He didn't blame you...”

Ya Jing kept shaking her head and said, ”he's blaming me. He hates me. Even at the moment of death, what he shows in his eyes is hatred.”

”It's because you can't accept the car accident, so you subconsciously tell yourself again and again that you haven't had a car accident or even a fiance. You let yourself forget that memory because you watched your favorite die in front of you in order to save you...”

”Stop talking...” Ya Jing reached out and covered her ears. She didn't want to listen any more. All her memories were too clear. She completely remembered those sweet past and painful moments. It turned out that those unbearable past events in her heart were her own guilt about that matter.

Lin Ziyu hugged her dearly, and her tears had already begun to turn in her eyes. Ya Jing felt how painful she was at the moment. Although he couldn't feel it, he felt no worse than her.

Ya Jing's mood gradually calmed down. From beginning to end, she remembered all things. It was precisely because she couldn't accept the car accident and felt guilty about it in her heart that she forced herself to forget, put all her thoughts on work and forbid herself to talk about feelings.

At eleven o'clock, Lin Ziyu patted her gently on the back and said, ”Yajing, it's getting late. Have a good rest today.”

”When I took someone back, he was dead. The direction of his eyes was where I left. He was really blaming me...”

”It's not your fault. Your intention to leave is not to abandon him, but to find someone to save him. You shouldn't blame yourself in your heart. His death has nothing to do with you.”

Ya Jing kept shaking her head and continued in a hoarse voice, ”but he thought to death that I left him and left by myself.”

”You can't use your cognition to judge what he thinks in his heart. He loves you so much and is willing to keep your identity secret for your career. Even when the car accident occurs, his subconscious action is to save you, so he never blames you. He loves you. You can't think of him so narrowly, okay?”

”But...”

”Yajing, just because you feel remorse and guilt, you let yourself forget this memory. But think about it. He loves you so much, how can he blame you? You've always trapped yourself in that narrow space.”

Listening to Lin Ziyu's words, Yajing cried even more. She felt that what he said at the moment was not unreasonable. Even her remorse and guilt decreased, but she couldn't control the sadness of losing her favorite.

That night, Yajing didn't sleep until the early morning, and Lin Ziyu was always with her. The past was revealed one by one. The things Yajing feared most were never unbearable and bad memories. It was a sweet past.

Because of the car accident, Yajing lost her favorite person. She once thought that her favorite person hated herself until she died, so she forced herself to forget that thing. Therefore, every night in her sleep, the man who can't see her face is her favorite person.