C190 (2/2)

”Why do you want me to be your father?”

The stars grabbed Zhou Zijin's collar and said, ”Uncle said Daddy can protect Mommy! Every kid has a dad, but I don't, so I want to … ”

The words of a child come out of the mouth of a star at this moment, but it makes my heart ache.

He's still young and doesn't know anything. When he grows up and finds out that he's different from other kids, will he blame me then?

”Uncle, can you be my father?” Star seemed to like Zhou Zijin a lot.

”You have to ask your mother that question.” Zhou Zijin touched the child's head.

I took Star from Zhou Zijin's arms.

”Be good, don't mess around and listen to me!”

”I'm not messing around …” The stars were aggrieved.

Seeing the child in this state, I was anxious and angry, but I couldn't bear to blame him.

”Alright, alright, don't blame the child.”

I held the baby, not knowing what to say.

”Quickly, go inside to accompany Grandma. Granny said she misses you.”

After all, with the child here, I just couldn't chat properly, so I could only send the child away first.

”Don't take what he just said to heart. I really don't know what that naughty brat Ming Yu taught him!”

I'm a bit embarrassed.

”It's alright, this child is pretty cute.”

”I am truly sorry …”

”Xiao Ye, I really didn't think that you would actually choose to give birth to your child. This is very unlike you. ”

Zhou Zijin was right, I have always been a person with a goal in the past. I have an extremely strong sense of purpose for everything I do.

At one point I decided not to have a child, because I wasn't sure if a personality like mine could be taken care of.

But when he really comes to me, I can't bear it.

”A person would probably change.”

I replied indifferently.

”Haven't you ever thought of finding someone to take care of you? It will be hard for a woman to raise a child. Besides, when a child grows up, without the love of a father, it is more or less a harm to the child. ”

I knew what he meant, but I had no choice but to refuse.

”This is pretty good too. After so many years, I have gotten used to being alone. This child … When he grows up, I will explain to him. When the time comes, he can choose to stay by my side or choose to return to his biological father's side. ”

”Xiao Ye... ”I …”

I know him as well as he knows me.

”Zi Jin, you don't need to say these words. Just like four years ago, how about we be good friends for life?”

He interrupted me before he could say anything.

”Right now, I just want to grow up with my child. I don't have any other things to care about anymore.”

”I respect your choice.”

He looked at me for a long time, and I kept avoiding his eyes.

We are all adults now, and we have all passed the time when we can't live without love. For us, love is the seasoning of life, but it is not necessary.

It was good to have some, but no, they could survive.

He knows me, and as long as I don't have something to live for, I'm not going to give in.

Neither of us spoke until then, just sitting quietly. It was about time for him to decide to go back, and I was standing in the doorway to see him off.