C155 (2/2)

I don't want to talk about things that put a lot of pressure on me.

”Director Ye is too kind.”

Old Xu shook his head as he spoke.

”This is all in the past.”

”Last time I heard you had a daughter here, didn't you always look for her? Have you found it? ”

It occurred to me that he had told me before that he had been a cadre when he was young, and that was probably what he said.

Old Xu looked at me with a complicated expression.

”I found it …”

”Really? Great! Then, did you recognize each other? ”

I was genuinely happy for him.

Old Xu shook his head, looking helpless.

”Why?!” I don't really understand Old Xu. Since I have already found my daughter, why didn't I recognize her?

”Actually, I only came here to see how my daughter is doing …” ”I'm satisfied with how well she's been living. Although I've never seen her in so many years, I've always missed her …”

”While you are thinking about your daughter, your daughter will definitely miss you very much as well. Furthermore, you are already old, and you can have a daughter by your side to take care of you. ”

I can see that Old Xu is hesitating a lot, but I feel that, as a daughter, since father has not been by her side for such a long time, she must really want to see her father.

”I still can't. I know she's doing well, so I'm already very happy. I feel very guilty for not being with her for so many years. I don't want to give her any more trouble.”

Old Xu shook her head as she said this, ”Moreover, no young and beautiful girl would wish for herself to have such a mediocre father.”

From Old Xu's words, I felt a deep helplessness and love for my daughter.

I think that Old Xu's daughter is happy. Although I have not seen my father for so many years, it's not that my father doesn't love her.

But my father was powerless.

”Old Xu, actually, your daughter is very happy and fortunate. Even though she hasn't had a father to accompany her for so many years, you have never stopped loving her.”

”Oh, so that's what you think?” Old Xu looked at me with a gratified expression and strange and complex emotions. I was completely unable to fathom these things.

I nodded. This was indeed the truest thought in my heart.

It was probably because when I was young, I wasn't taken seriously like others. I was considered as a bastard by everyone around me …

When I grew up, all the people I met were either lying to me, using me as a chess piece, or as a tool for me to use, or just trying to get what they believed to be love from me …

I've never had such pure love...

He didn't know why, but he suddenly felt envious of that girl he had never met. Old Xu said that she was living a good life now, that she had such a father that loved her, and that I, my mother, didn't love me.

She even thought of me as a burden, a stumbling block to get rid of!

Without comparison, there wouldn't be any harm. Thinking of this, my heart hurt violently.