102 Hugged Her Tigh (1/2)
She shook her head, her eyes brimming with tears. ”It's not like that, it's not like that…”
The urge inside her to say the truth was forcefully swallowed down.
During the day, she had gone to the hospital to check and found out that she was over forty days pregnant. She who was originally insistent on doing the operation for abortion was told by the doctor that, because she had done it once before, the damage was rather big. Her uterine lining was now thinner, and if she were to have another abortion operation again, there was a high risk and possibility of her being infertile for life.
She had asked how huge this risk was. The doctor claimed that it was huge, because if the uterine lining was too thin, the fertilized egg would not be able to be implanted. It was the same logic as having unsuitable soil for a seed to be planted.
Returning from the hospital, Chi Rui'er seemed to have lost her soul.
She was only 22 years old. If an operation for abortion caused her to be unable to be a mother for life, it was too much of a consequence to bear for her.
Even though technology was very advanced now to allow for surrogacy to take place, not being able to experience the process of carrying a child and giving birth to it herself would be her greatest regret as a woman.
Thus, she was hesitant about it.
She had thought about it in her room for a day and had wanted to tell Jin Qingyan. But now, she could not utter a single word.
She was worried she would question her about who the child's father was. She could not handle it.
She was worried that after knowing who the child's biological father was, he would be absolutely disappointed with her and not care about her anymore.
Such worries filled up her mind…
After calming down, these worries had emerged like bamboo shoots. She looked at Jin Qingyan before her and finally said, ”Qingyan, I don't have much money with me anymore, can you give me some to use?”
Jin Qingyan never stopped supporting her financially. He had always felt indebted towards her for saving him. His life was priceless, so all this while, he'd never stopped giving her money.
He immediately passed her a cheque. It was for five hundred thousand yuan.
She received it and took a look. A thought flashed through her mind: it's lesser than before.
”If there's nothing else, I'll go back first.”
”Qingyan…”
He stopped in his tracks. ”What else is wrong?”
”If I ask you to come over next time and you're not busy, can you come over as soon as possible?”
”I'll see. If I'm really not busy and there's something urgent, I'll come over.”
”Mmm.”
He went out and shut the door.
Chi Rui'er kept the cheque in her bag and laid down. She was still rather upset.
She was still troubled over whether to keep that vile thing in her stomach. If she were to keep it, she would be doing something against her will. But if she didn't, she might never have children again her whole life.
This problem drove her to the edge of a mental breakdown. She was thinking whether or not there could be a better solution to it.
”Ms. Chi…”
”What's wrong?” Chi Rui'er darted a glance at the doorway.
The lady who made food said, ”Your parents have come up from downstairs again. They're at the door now and refuse to leave. It's cold out there at night, and if they were to stay out for the whole night, I'm afraid…”
”Let my mother in, but not the other one.”
”Are you sure that is okay…”
”Just do what I tell you to. That person is not even my biological father, even if he freezes to death, what has it got to do with me?” Chi Rui'er bellowed as she glared angrily at her.
”Yes.” The lady turned and went to the door to let Mrs. Chi in.
Seeing that she refused to let her husband in, she had no choice but to enter by herself.
”You don't even pick up my calls now. Rui'er, do you really want to cut off ties with me and not go back to that home anymore?”
Looking at her, Chi Rui'er asked, ”You came here late at night just to ask me this?”