Chapter 32 (2/2)

Li Shuo was uncomfortable with Zhao Jinxin's sarcasm, but he didn't say anything: ”I went to Africa to help the teachers after graduation. He didn't go, so he separated.”

”It's him who promised you to go back to work.”

Li Shuo stopped. ”I said last time. He has his difficulties.”

”If he had any more difficulties, he would have been rebellious.””He was in a bad family and had a hard time finding a good job. At that time, I only thought about myself. I didn't care about money, so I thought other people didn't care. It was selfish.”

Zhao Jinxin chuckled: ”if he really cares about money, he shouldn't break up with you, as long as he is with you, will he be short of money in his life? Frankly, he doesn't trust you at all. ”

Li Shuo put down his knife with a clang, and his voice sank: ”Jin Xin, this is our relationship. I don't need or like you to analyze it. What do you know? Even if he didn't trust me, I was too naive to give him enough security. ”

Zhao Jinxin unconsciously released his hand and raised the volume. ”So it's all your fault to say you broke up. You must be full of guilt, right? Are you going to rekindle the excitement of that year

Li Shuo turned around, stared at Zhao Jinxin's eyes, and said earnestly, ”the past of feelings is over, and the past of regrets and sorrows is over. I have no intention of rekindling feelings.” His love for Han feiye is fully integrated into the memory of his youth. No matter how beautiful and memorable those years are, they can only be remembered after all. He has always liked Han feiye. It's an appreciation of that person's character, personality and soul, but he didn't love him any more.

Zhao Jinxin picks eyebrows: ”really?”

”Really.”

”What if he still likes you? Want to get back together with you? ”

Li Shuo was stunned. He didn't think about the possibility. After all, he seemed to be too sentimental.

Zhao Jinxin narrowed his eyes: ”did you refuse?”

”I......” Lishuodun, cautiously said, ”I don't know. I don't know if our thoughts, concepts and principles still fit in after 12 years.”

”What if it fits? Can you still like him? ”

Li Shuo stares directly at Zhao Jinxin's eyes: ”I can't predict the future. What's the point of discussing this with me? Is there a boundary between us? ” He has been fed up with Zhao Jinxin's aggressive questions. Why should he answer them? He would never ask Zhao Jinxin how many people he had slept with, and what position Zhao Jinxin took to issue such a general question of checking posts.

”Boundaries.” Zhao Jinxin, just like chewing these two words, sneered, ”of course. So did I cross the border today? ”

Li Shuo lowered his eyes and said, ”yes, it will not happen next time.”

Zhao Jinxin's eyes flashed a trace of coldness, and he smiled: ”Uncle Li is merciless. I suddenly know why you have so many ex boyfriends.”

Li Shuo's tail has been stepped on. He was teased by his father. He could not bear it. A boy who was nearly ten years old teased him about his emotional failure. He frowned: ”I have feelings for everyone and treat each other seriously. If I can't get together, it's not fate. Is that too much for you to say?”

”Am I wrong? You are always a saint of love. In fact, you are less affectionate than anyone else. For example, Li Chengxiu, my brother made a great deal for Li Chengxiu. How about you? Are you really sad? ” Zhao Jinxin can't help but want to stimulate lishuo. He knows that he shouldn't say any of these words, but he just can't seal his mouth.

Li Shuo said angrily, ”do you have to be stupid to be affectionate? Is it funny or not? I'm not a kid like you. Fickle? I'm fickle? What are you who are famous for playing in North American gay circles? Love and love? ”

Zhao Jinxin's face changed a little. He smiled coldly: ”who told you that?”

”Who told me the importance?” Li Shuo made a sign to stop, ”OK, this dispute is totally inexplicable. Your past belongs to you, my past belongs to me. We should not talk about each other and have no position to blame. This is called the boundary. ”

”I'm young, I'm not married, I don't promise, so what's the matter with me going to bed when you love me?” Zhao said

”No problem!” Li Shuo suddenly became angry and said, ”no problem, it's your freedom. So how many predecessors do I have, whether I'm affectionate or fickle, with whom I date, with whom I'll be with in the future, and it's my fucking freedom. Can I stop this meaningless topic now? ” Li Shuo thinks it's stupid to argue with Zhao Jinxin about this issue. Today's Zhao Jinxin is just like eating gunpowder. He can't understand what happened to them.

He is the most restrained kind of person, but he is always infuriated by Zhao Jinxin.

Zhao Jinxin bowed his head, kept silent for a moment, and suddenly smiled twice: ”well, I'm wrong, I've crossed the border, Uncle Li, don't be angry with me.”

Li Shuo could hear the irony in Zhao Jinxin's tone, and the apology also made him feel unhappy. He turned on the tap and rushed to his hand: ”today we are not suitable for getting along and communicating. I'll go back first.”

Zhao Jinxin put his arm around his waist: ”I won't let you go.”

Li Shuo frowned and said, ”let go, I'm serious.”

Zhao Jinxin was silent for a moment: ”I'm afraid of the dark.”

Li Shuo was filled with the same feeling of powerlessness as he let out his Qi. I don't know how many times, Zhao Jinxin used words to stimulate him, and then he played coquetry like nothing happened again. Sometimes he also wanted to know if it was because of his tolerance that Zhao Jinxin would never be happy. He sighed: ”Jinxin, I hope you can respect each other in the future. Don't question my life and feelings again. I'm serious. If you can't...” He wanted to say separation, but somehow he couldn't say it. They are not really together, but at least, at least in the past, they had a good time. When he thought of separating from Zhao Jinxin, his heart was blocked.What is Zhao Jinxin thinking? They agreed to their relationship with their bedmates, but also behaved as if they were jealous. However, after a lot of emotional tempering, Li Shuo couldn't see it at all for a while. He would like to observe for a while, and then decide whether to open up and make it clear. Even if it is possible to humiliate himself, it is better than wasting time like this.

The relationship with Zhao Jinxin made him feel like a game for the first time, because he was dominant in every past period. Maybe he was addicted to such exciting and fresh game in his subconscious, but he was also afraid of the never felt. In any case, he should control his relationship with Zhao Jinxin as well as his own feelings. He should use reason to direct his life direction, and never make a mistake in his feelings.

Zhao Jinxin kissed his cheek with warm lips, and his soft voice was cold: ”well, it's better to only communicate with you in bed.”

Li Shuo narrowed his eyes and waved away his unhappiness.

They are bed companions. Zhao Jinxin said nothing wrong.