68 Hones (1/2)

It seemed that Lucian's words had truly affected her, Aileene finally broke down the remaining walls that isolated her heart. There were no more excuses that she could tell herself to pass by her days, she wanted to do something for once, something that wasn't stopped by her overthinking and indecisiveness. She could plan and plan, but what did all her planning amount to. When had she ever accomplish the goals that she wanted to accomplish? It was all just trivial words and thoughts that she would tell herself with no weight. It's only effect would be to tear herself down further with its restlessness.

She knew that she couldn't continue on like this, so she pulled herself together and decided to become completely transparent with Lucian. Aileene didn't know where she would even begin, but she had to one way or another. There didn't need to be contentions between the two of them. She couldn't allow that to happen. Her priority now was Lucian's and her own happiness. That would start with her own honesty.

But it's harder said than done, she could never find the right time to disclose the words that she wanted to say. When they were alone, she would automatically clam up. And when she finally did build up enough courage to tell him, it would be at an inconvenient time. Everything was dragged on so bitterly that it seemed as if she would never reach any satisfying results, she almost thought that she had somehow cursed herself. It really couldn't be that she would stay like this, never being able to talk face to face with Lucian.

Aileene sighed, this was once again another moment for her to talk to Lucian. He was in her room, and they were alone. But all she wanted to do was ignore all her convictions. This was just a location that they stayed at often. They had many more chances to be alone since the few places that they did venture was the library and each other's dormitory. So she didn't have to admit anything to him now, she still had time. She only needed to gather her courage for a few more days.

They were together at almost every moment in the day. This was fine.

They also have very similar schedules, all their classes were the same. The only class that they had separately was culinary and fencing. She had taken culinary to better her cooking skills and Lucian wanted to continue honing his sword skills. So they accepted their parts in ways before lunch.

It wasn't too bad though, Aileene was quite happy to learn more about something that she normally wouldn't pay attention to. And culinary wasn't a very popular class either since most nobles had no need to become chefs. Austrion was just an academy that boasted classes for anything that the heart could desire. So culinary wasn't something that could have been excluded.

Aileene smiled since Francis and her were in the same class. It couldn't be helped that they had some interaction, especially with his interest in Xi. Who had always been close to her until recently. She still worried about her wellbeing, she just didn't know how to approach her. But that didn't mean that she hadn't noticed all the interactions between Francis and Xi. They grew closer by the day and it was rather cute. She didn't want to interrupt their happiness, she was satisfied to stay where she was. She was sure that the three of them would be able to rekindle completely one day. And maybe they could eventually add Cielo and Kira into their group.

The two girls also seemed busy with their own relationships, but they were pursuing their happiness all the time. Aileene wanted things to continue this way, she wanted nothing more than to preserve the contentment of the characters that were dragged into this vain game. This was a new beginning for all of them. And this was a new beginning for her.

Aileene glance to Lucian beside her, he was focused and she felt a bit insignificant admiring so. It would be satisfying to even just be a small speck of dirt on his coat, as long as she was near him.

Lucian felt eyes on him and turned to Aileene, who had a small smile on her lips. She stared at him as if she could get full from just looking and was so satisfied that it made him chuckle. She was too cute.