Chapter 73: Disillusioned (2/2)

Seeing that she was being so polite yet a little unfriendly caused Shi Fengju to be slightly at a loss. But swiftly, he recovered and said, “Yes, I don’t mind it. I’ve brought quite a number of things back from my trip, but because I didn’t have the time, they were still left in the study room. Tomorrow, I’ll have someone carry them over. Just arrange them however you wish and gift them to the other members of the family!”

“Okay.” Sang Wan nodded.

Shi Fengju saw that she was starting to shift a little away from him. No matter the amount of enthusiasm he put in, it would all be shattered into fragments by her. The conversation continued for a little while before Shi Fengju finally lost it, and he got up. “Rest early tonight! I’ll be going back to the study room. I’ll be back tomorrow night!” After some thought, he added, “Fangzi’s still my mother’s niece. Even if I don’t take her into consideration, I still have to take into account my mother’s reputation.”

Sang Wan was startled. Was he trying to explain to her? She didn’t hear him wrongly, did she? Wasn’t Gu Fangzi the person whom he cared for the most? Why would he—

When she recovered, Shi Fengju had already left.

Sang Wan lowered her head and tried to digest what he had said. The corner of her lips rose slightly, and her heart slowly felt a strange feeling. It was indescribable; it was slightly sour, but it had a hint of sweetness, along with a tiny bit of sadness.

Whether his words were spoken from impulse or not, Sang Wan didn’t wish to dive in deeper. There was no use in guessing because that wouldn’t prove anything at all.

Once Shi Fengju left the small garden, he looked back at the brightly lit house and smiled bitterly before letting out a sigh. Looking back in front, he lowered his head and softly called out Sang Wan’s name twice before cupping his hands to the back as he slowly headed to the study room.

His cousin Gu Fangzi. He had completely seen her true colors!

Originally, he thought that marrying her was something he desired most, and it would be the happiest day of his life! But today, as he stood behind the lush greenery watching the small sedan enter the household, his heart was so calm that there was not a single ripple in it, almost as if it had nothing to do with him! He even doubted whether the choice he made to marry her was right or not.

When he reached Peony Park, he stood at the back, quietly watching her as she cussed loudly without a stop. At that moment, there were only two words in his mind: She’s “absurd”!

Never had he thought that she would actually have such a side to her. In places where he could not see, she was clearly like a vicious shrew.

Shi Fengju shuddered uncontrollably at the thought. This was the woman that he had liked for many years! How did he end up liking such a woman! Recalling all sorts of things from the past, he wondered, just what kind of affection did he have for her?

Shi Fengju was confused. All he felt in his heart was emptiness. Some things were never like what one had imagined. He wanted to see clearly, yet his sight was blurred by a layer of fog.

He did not allow Lan Xiang to report his presence. Instead, he chose to silently leave by himself.

At a turn, the filths gradually drifted away, and in his mind, another figure subconsciously appeared. This time, there were all sorts of impressions and memories. There were smiles which were like blooming flowers, and there was her bashful expression when she was shy. There were also times when she acted with restraint, gentleness, elegance, and bitterness. All these belonged to one person—Sang Wan.

At this moment, without his knowing, she had already filled every corner of his heart. Thinking about her, his entire heart would flutter.

He could not help but begin paying attention to her, only to find out that her every movement, every gesture, and every expression had always attracted him. From just a short meal and a short chat, Shi Fengju was able to confirm the fact that she had already entered his heart without his knowing!

What one desired, one would have to fight hard for them to pursue them! That was the spirit of the Shi family, and it was also something Shi Fengju had always believed in as a businessman. Of course, it did not just apply to business; it could also be used in other places as well.

He was never one who was willing to force himself. Just like when he had to marry the woman his parents had arranged for, he treated that woman coldly and gave all his heart to his beloved cousin, and that was something he had always planned to continue! But now, after realizing that the one whom he had liked for so many years was not like he had imagined, he would do the same and not deceive himself!

Shi Fengju suddenly felt regretful. He regretted knowing too late, right on the very day when the ceremony was already held! If he had seen through this earlier than today, he would definitely not have welcomed Gu Fangzi in. Unfortunately, it was too late!

Fortunately, there was still three years, and that was ample time to change many things! If he still was not able to settle this in three years, then even he would look down on himself.

That evening, Shi Fengju, Sang Wan, and Gu Fangzi were destined to have a sleepless night. Shi Fengju kept tossing and turning, but his head was filled entirely with Sang Wan. Occasionally, he would ponder and smile, and then he would frown and sigh. Such a sensation was something he had never felt before. Sang Wan had the most tumultuous feelings, and she was extreme difficulty because she did not know whether she should remain conflicted!

As for Gu Fangzi? Her mind was calm and clear as she schemed in her head. She was making plans on how she should go about with her upcoming days! She thought that to obtain something, she would have to fight for it. The difference between Shi Fengju’s and her ideologies was that she would do so using any means possible!

Early the next morning, Gu Fangzi got up. She picked a set of pale green top and white dress before ordering Lan Xiang to comb her hair.

Looking into the mirror like an unmarried girl as her hair was combed, there was regret and hatred within her. if not for that damn old geezer dying at such a time, she would be seeing Shi Fengju right behind her through the mirror as she was putting on her makeup, and they would have been at their peak of ecstasy last night!

Damn old geezer! He was already a burden while he was alive. To think that he would not let her live her life peacefully even in death! Gu Fangzi could not help but scowl.