C19 (1/2)

”Did I harm you just now that you would be embarrassed?” Xiao Keke sat with me for a while, then asked softly.

I cast her a glance and thought to myself, If she hadn't suddenly appeared and purposely provoked me, I wouldn't have said that and let them make such a decision. Maybe I would have been able to explain myself to them.

”Zhang Feng, don't be angry okay? I'm sorry,” Xiao Keke said as sshe shook my arm. Seeing that I didn't say anything, he stood up and apologized seriously.

”It's none of your business. This is something that will happen sooner or later!” I replied indifferently. Actually, this was a backlog of contradictions, something that had been accumulated for a long time.

”Then you have forgiven me,” Xiao Keke laughed.

”Yes …” I snorted in reply.

”Oh yes, I have some private questions for you. Can you answer them for me?” Xiao Keke asked again.

”No,” I said flatly, because I knew what she wanted to ask, and that was something I didn't want to face, and I didn't want to remember.

”Don't be like this, if you have something on your mind, you should say it. Don't keep it in your heart, it might cause you to choke and cause problems. What if one day you can't take it and commit suicide like me?” Xiao Keke said.

”Don't worry, I didn't commit suicide when I was in a difficult situation. There will never be anything in this world that would force me to commit suicide.” I forcefully answered.

Inevitably, I thought back to the time when my family members took away my last remaining fortune, when I was the poorest of the family members, when I didn't even have a hundred dollars, when I was hungry for two whole days without eating, when I even drank tap water, but then I came back, and from then on my heart was as hard as a stone, and nothing could ever make me commit suicide again.

”Since you are so strong, then why didn't you accept the class teacher's suggestion to go to a nightclub to work? You better study hard and find a good job than being a waiter right now,” Xiao Keke asked.

”Who doesn't know the grand principles? I also want to study hard and find a good job after graduation, but I've studied hard already, whoever gives me money to eat, how about my school fees, who pays my rent, the money, the most important thing is the money, understand?” I was a little angry, and raised my voice as if scolding Xiao Keke.

Who wouldn't want to pursue a beautiful life? Who wouldn't want to study in university and pick up girls? Who would want to work at a nightclub without sleeping every night? Who would want to be ordered around like a dog?

If you don't have money, you can ask your family members for it. If your family is in a difficult situation, don't you have a student loan right now? If you can't get the loan, then the school will have a student fund that you can apply for. The instructor said that he could apply for a student fund for you, why wouldn't you want it? ”Xiao Keke also refuted me.

I stared into Xiao Keke's eyes and coldly said: ”Firstly, we, the Zhang Family, have rules, we will not accept food that is given to us, we do not believe that there is a good thing that has fallen into our hands, so I will not accept the Student Assistance Fund. Secondly, everyone's family is not like your family, where they will pay as soon as they want, and no one in my family will be able to give me money, and thirdly, this is my private matter, and it has nothing to do with you.”

”Hey, why are you like this? I'm just concerned about whether you understand me or not. Do you know how to be grateful?” Xiao Keke yelled angrily.

”I'm sorry, but I don't need your concern,” I replied directly. I'm not familiar with you, so I don't need your concern.

”How can you be like this, sealing yourself off like this, how are you going to make friends, how are you going to work in the future, how are you going to make girlfriends!” Xiao Keke was so angry that her face turned red, and she pointed at me while cursing.

”Thank you! So what if I am like this? I don't need any friends, I'm fine by myself!” I said as I directly went back.

”Serves you right. Serves you right for not having any friends. Serves you right to be single.” Xiao Keke pouted and quietly cursed.

I ignored her, this kind of senseless quarreling made me uncomfortable, because I hadn't had a quarrel with anyone for a long time. In a nightclub, quarrelling with a guest was taboo in the workplace, you had to listen to what the customer was right to, you had to listen to what the guest was wrong, you had to listen to what the customer was wrong, you absolutely must not retort, you did not retort, the guest was happy, I might get a consolation fee, if the customer was angry, I would be expelled.

Lying on the grass, I looked at the blue sky and white clouds, but my thoughts involuntarily returned to the past.

At that time, I was still a freshman, and I was still a happy university student. I didn't have to worry about tuition fees or living expenses, and every day, I attended lessons, played games, and discussed with my roommates what kind of beautiful girl I saw today.

But suddenly one day, this kind of beautiful life was broken, that day, I went out to eat dinner with my roommate, to celebrate his success in confessing to the girl he liked, because he was so happy to play, he didn't even know that his phone was out of battery, and when I returned to my dorm and turned it back on, I found that there were countless missed calls on my phone, people I didn't know.

In the end, I picked a relative's number and called back, but the news stunned me like a bolt out of the blue.

”Zhang Feng, come back quickly. Your parents are in an accident and have gotten into a car accident, they are still in the hospital to rescue people.” After hearing what he said, I felt that he was joking with me and immediately hung up the phone.