Chapter 132: Discussion (1/2)

Benladann POV

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My emotions are a turmoil. I don't know when I fell asleep, but it might have been a bit after something surged out from the ground.

Something… Big and made of metal…

It was strange… But Drake said it was a ”mech” or something.

And when that voice… within this mech said something…

Something about…

Ah…

Ungh…

N-Now I remember…

My parents… are dead.

This reality hurts so much… I don't want to accept it. I don't really want to accept it…

Please, make it stop…

I don't want to…

No…

Mama… papa…

Why? Why did you have to die?

I should have never left…

Without you what will I do? Where will I go?

I miss them… I miss them so much…

Ah…

It feels as if I am about to be torn apart by the pain I feel, it feels like I want to kill myself, this pain is so big it makes me want to go insane…

I don't want to live anymore… Without them I-

”Why are you getting like this now? After all that talk over that stupid dragon, now you're forgetting about him?”

Eh?

Dragon… Ah, Drake…

”Yeah, Drake. Did you forget about him? He beat me to a pulp.”

No… I could never… forget about him… I…

But… Hahh… My mind… my heart… my everything… it hurts so badly…

”I know how you feel. I can feel all your emotions, sister…”

Do you feel all my emotions? Yet… you made me suffer so much before? Why? Why are you like this and why are you showing up now from all things? Only in my dreams…

What do you want now? To make me feel even worse?

”I wanted to protect you, so I was willing to bear the pain…”

Why do you care?

Why are you here…

”I never disappeared… I was always here. I will always be here. I am… a part of you, your sister, Miranda…”

Call me by my name! Call me by the name that my parents gave me!!!

”…Benladann.”

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You said it…

”I did…”

Sigh…

”L-Look, I don't want to make you feel worse. I was just noticing how you were forgetting about the stupid dragon, so I reminded you of him for you…”

Yeah… I can see that…

I don't know why I forgot about him…

Ah… It must be because of the pain… So much pain…

This is perhaps an even worst pain…

”Hm… Pain… I am already used to it… Are you?”

…Maybe.

I feel… so strange.

Is this when you simply live with the pain?

Ah…

W-Wait…

Within my fuzzy memories… Drake… he… he helped me put my parent's souls inside my weapons…

He did that… for me…

He…

Ugh, I should stop being like this, I have to wake up, quickly…

I want to meet him… I want to thank him for this too…

Drake…

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Miranda POV

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