Chapter 52: I Wont Let You Control Me Anymore! (1/2)

Benladann POV

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It was as if I had been drowning in an endless sea of darkness.

Everything felt dull.

There was nothing but the void, emptiness.

Nothing but me.

And so, I slept.

And slept…

And slept more…

I don't know how long I slept.

My body seemed to no longer belong to me, and it was as if I was devoid of anything…

I slept within the darkness, despair and fear faded away, and there was simply… nothing.

I had become empty…

For I don't know how long, it continued to be like this.

Sometimes, fragments, strange memories of blue-skinned people would flash through my mind.

Who were these people?

I don't know…

I only know that whenever I remembered them, I felt a warmth within my empty heart.

There was something… that I needed to remember.

There were people… I wanted to remember.

Aside from Miranda… I was someone else.

But no matter how hard I searched, no matter how hard I had dived into the sea of darkness… I could not find the answers I looked for.

But… there was something not right…

I continued to look for it…

I wanted… to know…

But the darkness continued to block my path.

I had begun to despair once more…

But every time I remembered those fragments of memories I saw, some strange new strength surged into my heart.

What was this sensation? This warmth, this comfort…

Who were these people to me?

I wish… I could remember…

I want to remember…

I want to remember who were these people!

Why…?

Why… do I love them so much?

I continued to delve into the darkness… I continued for… god knows how long…

But it always blocked my path.

I despaired… and despaired…

But the memories brought strength into my heart.

My mind was filled with twisted memories, and emotions bubbling in and out.

But there was something that always made me felt calm… them.

But it began to hurt.

The darkness became envious and angered, and it began to pierce me with needles.

It was so painful…

Hundreds, no, thousands of needles were constantly piercing my very spirit, trying to wear me down.

The piercing pain was so horrendous I wished I could die many times.

Just kill me already… Why must you keep me here? Trapped and despaired? Only to make you feel better?

What do you want from me?

”Family”

Ah…

”Don't you remember? We wanted a family, and we are here, both of us! You don't need any other people than me! We are twins, we are family, and we don't need anyone else!”

My same voice spoke to me, with a different tone…

She said… we were family.

But… I don't want to be your family.

”Eh?”

Let me go…