Vol 1 Chapter 4 (2/2)
On that day, everything she wrote in the notebook was about the sa
As for why this is the case, I have to go back to two days ago I riting o–in other words, in response to Hikari Yu of which, it’s a bit late, but do you have any girls that you like, Sakaes with? What do you think about her?”
In regards to that question, o was, “I don’t have anyone I like, and I’irl We’re just penpals I didn’t think of her as that kind of partner’ Surely such a content should be fine, I guess I’ in any way, and we never contacted each other all the time
However, I found that line right at the beginning of the notebook
And then, the line beloas,
“Hm–hmmm~”
And the following line,
“H about here?
And furthermore, there came this offensive line,
“A virgin A penpal girl ‘I don’t think of her as this kind of partner’ (twinkle)…this is weird This isn’t like you, you lustful Sakamoto”
Leaveabout this!
And then, there comes this line,
“Now then, have you been confessed to before? Ah, if I’ a very cruel question here, I’m sorry”
Such a question was posed to me
“That worry of yours is more cruel here, okay?”
I let out a sullen sigh in the room
Normally, I would have to say ‘no’
I never actually irl properly, and I feel that I won’t ever get a confession in my lifetime
But what do I write here?
Write down “I haven’t been confessed to in h school?” Now this is too e
“My lie won’t be exposed, right?”
I lost to what can be said to be an unnecessary amount of pride
“I did, once before But I refused”
Such da er But can you understand this? Boys are all like this, right?
And so, I use this moment to slip in a question I alanted to ask
Nonchalantly, pretending not to be interested
“What about you?”
“It should be natural, right…?”
I muttered to myself
This girl has such a cheerful personality, and I won’t be surprised if I see her aggressively pursuing one
In that case, the chances of her having a boyfriend is–
“…”
I feel conflicted for some reason, and so I decide not to think about it
In the end, ht, so I can only force myself to sleep Two days later, when I woke up, I immediately open the notebook hastily
First, let’s check the reply to my forced reply,
“Once? That’s somewhat unexpected”
That’s all
…
This is…erm?
I feel that there’s so the next line at the bottom
I take a deep breath, and open ht
“Secret (heart sign)”
“…”
A defeated feeling arose in me, and so I write down there, “I’m not very interested eitherfroh, so I intend to rub it off However, I can’t as it’s a ball-point pen, and I really regret it
“What a here…”
Seriously, as I doing?
“You look rather tired”
“All sorts of things happened”
“Oho, it was really intense yesterday, huh?”
“How many times have you said this”
It’s a certain Tuesday
Because of that idiot staying up late at night, I’m completely worn up, and I can only take a break and head to the infirmary to rest
Higumo’s dressed in a white robe, her hair tied in a ponytail as she swayed herThe way she’s dressed up see hot
“I’ quite some attention yourself”
“Catching attention…huh?”
I stare at the ceiling, and start to think about recent events
I had neither friends nor a girlfriend
I was ostracized by others no matter whether I was in school, or at home, and also treated as a super delinquent in school too
These were a thing of the past
Right now, I still don’t have a girlfriend, but there are people I can call friends in class I never made any friends before, so I’m not too certain as to the level of friendshi+p, which
My relationshi+p with my family is not as tense as it used to be before, and I feel that the frequency of
I’ll occasionally hear people in the neighborhood saying ‘Looks like his rebellious state is over’, probably because I have been taking part in neighborhood volunteer work Was I giving such an impression before this?
My situation at school is as Higumo had said I don’t really kno the teachers view me here, but I at least am really trusted by my classmates, and the proof of this is thatht to call this prestige? I do think it’s a little wrong however
“Have I changed here?”
I inadvertently blurt out these words
daumo didn’t hear o?
“Capture success”
“Woah!?”
At thefrom
Higu on the bed, pressing on my chest
Wait–don’t do this in a e’s open…!
“You won’t be able to ?”
“I-I’m not…”
This person seriously needs to be educated
Seriously, and speaking of which, when has she been this interested in oodwill at first Such a strange fellow
“…This teacher here is worried about you, you know?”
“Huh?”
What’s she saying out of a sudden? What’s with this developet off me now
“Hey, Akitsuki? Is this teacher fine with you? This teacher’s glad to do so if it’s you This teacher will, keep this, a, se-cr-et”
“I say, why such a developh already”
“You don’t wanna?”
“No”
“Really?”
“Really”
“You’re lying”
“Yeah, it’s a lie”
An annoying silence descend of the silence, somewhat mixed with the noises from the field
shi+t, what’s with this? Why’s she giving such a skeptical look?
“Akitsuki, you’re too uy This teacher understands this very well You would alorry about others all this ti your life, saying ‘please have it’ and handing it over Isn’t it better to just live your life as it is?”
“…”
I want to say so, but I can’t refute her points I’m such an honest person after all
I’ive up half uy
“Are you the type of person who’ll follow every single coives?”
“Such a thing isn’t–”
And I have a little regret over the averting of my eyes
“That braids girl?”
“…I don’t know”
Higuer as she asked me this
I continue to search for all sorts of excuses, but it seems that I’ll end up more susceptible, so I decide to reive already, you
“It’s not always a good thing to obey the one you likes if you decide your true thoughts, you’ll regret this for the rest of your life Regret is a punishuilt is too much for a short human lifespan to handle Especially when it comes to a certain person–”
“…”
Higu such words to someone else
For souy said, or maybe it’s just me
“Well, hoho, aren’t you quite cute
And then, Higumo–
“Nnn…”
Chu
“Too bad This is all this teacher can say right now Bye then”
Higuer to wipe around my lips, and slowly leaves me At the same time, she releases her body from me
“Also, I do find you more handsome with shorter hair”
Leaving these words behind, she heads out of the infirure…well, whatever
“…Is she, serious…”
The ers a sweet, cold touch on my lips
Such a touch fuddled ulp
Having returned froe clothes, and look at the notebook
I’, so I leftthis notebook
I guess there isn’t anything important written inside
“[Virgin report!] I just witnessed Kasustore today!! Just a stepto be the Pirate Queen!”
“Did she just write so there——!?”
You’re kidding ht?
No, this is, ehhh!?
Wait, wait, calm do This may be a joke on Hikari Yumesaki’s part Calm do!
For some reason, it seems that Kasumi has been weirder than usual today…
And the girls’ eyes are dazzling when they look at me…
…
“AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!”
I don’t know anyet about it all!!
Inone round around the streets, and once I got to , did handstands, shouting ‘shi+ a ruckus until my mind finally reverts back to normal Cal the lights switch already Enough already, me!
After exerting the excessive energy within h the notebook
“Recently, everyone’s been asking irl do you like’? I think it’s better that Sakaht? Anyway, I just said big breasts, white skin, big breasts, petite body, big breasts, twintails, moe, is that okay?”
“Aren’t you just talking about that girl?”
It’s a rare thing that this girl actually asks for what I ask
I guess she’s playing it safe this time because it also concerns Kasumi
“My type?”
I wonder once again
As for what I can see…well, I’m not so particular about that
A cute girl is fine, but the i is the inner heart The appearance is just a decoration after all I can’t say that a terrifying appearance requires a different treatment No way
I rub my sweat away, and continue to ponder
If it’s personality, I guess I prefer a cheerful girl after all
It’s best if it’s an enthusiastic girl who can drag this unenthusiastic me around
As for other aspects, I don’t think it’s a bad thing if that girl’s personality is stubborn, or that she’ll pay any particular mind to the mind Perhaps a feisty personality is fine after all As for being a prankster…
………
……
…
“What aether, man!”
I yell as I slaainst the table
It’s a mistake, a mistake here, I say! That’s not supposed to be the case!
“daht…?”
For soain shake h already Soun around!?
After going rampant for quite a while, I leap to the bed
–I didn’t know that you were such a wonderful person, Sakamoto
Kasu my mind
Am I serious? Am I seriously serious here!?
“I never noticed it That person–”
Was, was so–
“Confession’s————————————————————————————————————————-here!!!!! It’s here!!! It’s here——!!!”
Waking up earlier due to the alarm clock set earlier than usual, I find the room still in darkness
Is that so,
“Oh…”
For so out this sound
Continued on the notebook is,
“Kasuo out with me’! And I said ‘I want to make a serious answer, so please wait for a day’!! I’ve done my prep here here!! it’s up to you now! Make your firm decision!!”
The words are dazzling, looking excited
And right below it are the words,
“I’ve already cut your fingernails”
“…”
I already understood from the emotions in the word
That girl wrote such words with such a happy feeling
But because of this, I–
I called Kasumi over to an empty classroom
It’s after school, and the sunset fills the campus
It’s the warirl likes
The performance of the wind instrust the sound of sunset
Surely this is unmendable now
“Sorry, I can’t go out with you”
This line is a lot easier than I thought, even I was shocked by it
My heart was pounding so loudly,for some reason
“…No”
“Sorry”
But the unexpected thing is that Kasumi did not avert her eyes
She’s not crying at all She’s not shocked at all She’s just re how to cry and tremble
It’ll be laughable if I can’t endure this any further
But I’m unable to do so, and finally look away
I don’t want to see such a sad look if possible, I want to be able to let Hikari Yumesaki face all these However, this matter won’t just end like this
And thus, I had to make Kasumi cry
“Why…?”
Kasuly in a dream as she lets out a soft voice
She looks like she’s trying to hold it in, like she was giving up, and yet unable to give up
She’s chidingable to hear such a voice?
“I have somebody I like”
I find this to be a cruel line
Beautiful it is, but extremely cruel,
“That person’s selfish and does whatever she does, is easily angered, loves to play tricks, and is basically like an idiot She never thinks about doing things in order, lacks co trouble for others in whatever she does She’s really a hopeless person She’s been causing s that annoylike this ever since I’m born, so, so…I–”
I’m unable to say anymore
Because I don’t have the courage to continue
“What you like isn’t me That’s why, I’m sorry”
“I don’t knohat you mean…”
The furious words are dripping onto the wet floor
And all I can do is to apologize,
“…Who is it? Who’s that girl?”
“…”
“…I think…I like you irl, Sakamoto”
“…I think so too”
“…But even that’s, not enough…?”
“Sorry”
“…”
I mercilessly trample upon her last resistance
“…That’s enough”
She proceeds to leave, harboring intense emotions, sadness all over
The back profile of hers cause ive me
The floor is marked with her tears
And they shall never disappear
It’s two days later
My rooe
The rooin describing the scene I let out a sigh Well, this went just as I expected
My body’s feeling very heavy, and my eyes hurt
The pain and scrapes onthe wall
I take out e from my sister
“What are you thinking, y-you stupid brother! Just go and die!”
And to match my response, I open the sent mail folder
“This tragedy has awakened a forbidden afternoon trouble! Oh little sister! Come comfort your brother!”
And all I can see are 30 of these disgusting es
“…Enough already”
There’s the clothes that were toppled out, the overturned furniture and miscellaneous items
I pick up the iteuess I can call her gentle as the only thing left unscathed in the room was the Parsley
And in the end, I moved the trash bin, now on the desk, onto the floor, and opened the notebook that was placed under it
There was one simple line written in there,
“You idiot”
“As you say so”
I lower ize
“459am?”
If I’ up on the bed today, even thisher best in her oay however She has textbooks and reference books placed on the desk like a student, and the notebook were placed by the side
“It’s Hikari’s victory…I hope that’s the case…”
Written on it was a line akin to a dying e
“It’s still cold in the ?”
It’sin early June, still somewhat dark out there
Ito reverse the red color
“Guess there’s no doubt this is the time after all”
It’s theof the month, the mid-terms around the corner
Iout of coincidence, that ‘there’s a fixed time for us to switch over’
Before this, both Hikari Yumesaki and I assu the time when sleep, till the moment ake up However, it seems the time itch over is fixed There are occasions when I burn theto revise for h, and that I’m on the bed the next moment I wake up
And so, I came up with a conjecture, that ‘at a certain ti’, and decide to experiment on each other
The experi, that ‘Hikari Yuht oil, and ill check the time ake up’ At the moment, once the personalities have been switched, I can tell the ti at the clock This is also a reason to force Hikari Yumesaki, who doesn’t do any forht oil
That girl has always stayed up late, but after looking at the plan, she protested,
“I don’t wanna stay up till ”
However, I broke out ofdeterards to this This isn’t a joke; it’ll be bad if I don’t hurry up and study The subjects are basically divided into 2, so the burden’s probably s harder
And so, after several setbacks (where Hikari Yu), we finally succeeded on this day The proof is that I’m very tired It see
“So the timebefore then”
If I don’t do so, both of us will be confused due to the sudden switch
Like for exahts
Did she just brew it, or was it completely chilled?
It’s a , but a sudden switch in personality will cause anyone to have doubts Also, I wonder if she took a sip from this coffee, or not at all–
“…”
No, it’s an indirect kiss, but that’s just ht? But well, to put it in some way, it’s like an indirect kiss
“She prepared it for me, huh?”
It see’s unfortunate Well, since she brewed it, I’ll help myself now
I thought as I reach –
“Hot!”
It’s hot! Hotter than I thought!
I saw it giving off steaht!
“Looks like she just brewed it…huh?”
There’s a little note placed under the cup saucer, now liberated froht of the cup
Written on it were the messy words out of place,
“I think it’s about that time now”
“…”
Ah, I see So that’s how it is
The war deep within my heart
The indescribableme to subconsciously show a smile
“You did well there, Hikari Yumesaki”
The sky outside theis gray with a blue hue, a color that could cause one to forget about others for some inexplicable reason
It’s like the initialinto a different world, inexplicably delighted
I look at the sky that girl was looking at just a while back, and my cold body is warmed by that sweet color
“What is this?”
It’s a certain sunny day after the mid-terms ended without a hitch
I switch on the co to burn soe folder
It’s a custon icon, placed in the middle of the desktop The title of the folder is ‘My true feelings’
“…”
True feelings
Heart sign
…
I’uess it doesn’t matter if I have a look at it
I gulp, and while panting, I double-click on the icon
And like my anime folder, the folder’s encrypted, damn it Password
Anyway, I try entering all the passwords I can think of, but they all return back as errors
My (Watashi+) true feelings I (Ore) want to see I (Watashi+), I (Ore), I (Watashi+), I (Ore), I (Watashi+)
“…”
“Hikari Sakamoto”
“What’s with that!?”
Enter
Confirm
damn it
“Calm down, calm do, me”
After the massive delusion of an eleain
I’m curious, but I don’t know the password…dairl’s thinking? Though she always has been like this
Feeling reluctant, I still force myself to connect to the internet instead
And while I’ the internet to relieve myself
“Ah!”
I notice so
There’s a website I’ve never seen before on the browsing history
“Got to be that girl”
I’ this computer after all
And so,
Any records I don’t know of that’s indicated here is definitely left behind by that girl
In other words, I can tell what she normally looks at
In other words, I can peek upon her privacy
“…”
What do I do?
Can I look?
Maybe I’ll end up on a pervert looking site–
…
“I guess it’s fine if it’s just a little”
I feel that I’h my privacy fro that left me speechless The files in that anied due to the number of times she viewed it, and the most watched anime title that’s boasted proudly is “The number of tissue paper I’ve taken down is no less than anyone else” Right, now one
“Anyway, let’s start from the top”
Driven by my curiosity, I open the web site
Shown on it is a shopping site filled with photos of cats and dogs There’s a lot of anieboards too
As for other stuff, there are teret up quietly’, ‘high school student average’ in the search history There’s even a search record of a ‘sexy Drea can occur, right! Yes, right?
Also, the search history includes of ‘Yukimaru’s new issue’, ‘Boy Incos to use’, but I’m most interested in,
“Boyfriend birthday present’
“…………………………”
…Boyfriend…………
That…erm?
Hm…
Maybe, perhaps–
–Pak
I inadvertently slapa foolish smile to sober myself, and shake my head head,
Don’t be hasty Calm down
These alone aren’t enough forsearch record is a huge problea on the situation, this will cause a family dispute
I then continue to search through the search history, and find an unexpected site,
“…Wisdoirl actually uses such a site?”
I found the ‘YaOoo! Wisdo (智恵袋)!”everyone has been helped by
However, it’s not just for browsing, just questioning I wonder what sort of face she made when she used this
“Oh yeah I can see what she searched for here, right?”
The first question that entered ht,
“That Saka looks very cute when it’s hard Is this an anomaly?”
“DON’T KID AR