Chapter 421 First Tes (2/2)
Seeing I will have to do something soon before my thoughts are completly freeze-up, I again put my concentration on the suppressive feeling and started to visualize memories.
Normally only slight though needed remeber the memory in mind but now I have to concentrate to remember the and it is taking quite an effort doing that.
My main objective is to keep my mind going and what could best way that remembering old memories, there are a couple of other things I could do as well.
like perform math or think about difficult problems, that would have made my mind worked harder than just simple remembering memories but I think memories are the best option and that is why I kept remembering them.
Time passed by and it became harder and harder to play memories in my mind but I still continue to play the memories in my mind.
The memories I first played in my mind were just a pleasant one, like peaceful moments with the family and friends but as the suppression increased, I started to remeber important memories that brought out emotions in me.
Like the memories that give joy, sadness, and other emotions but soon these memories weren't enough to stop the freezing of my mind, so I started remembering life-changing memories, the memories where my life had completly changed.
Like the monster horde that attacked my town when I was eleven and killed my friend or when the three fatty's had fed me the monster or the birth of my sister.
These are all memories that had changed the course of my life, one way or another and made me who I am today, with these memories playing in my mind, I felt a lot batter as second ago I was barely able to think any things.
The pressure of suppression lessen a little and my thoughts regained little of their former speed but it lasted for a few minuits before suppression came back stronger than ever.
Even remembering the memories had become a very very strenuous task that I had nearly reached my limit and could snap any moment but despite that, I continue replying to the memory.
The memory I am remembering is that of the birth of my sister, it is clear as the day in mind as it happened just yesterday.
I still remember that when I first time saw the face of my sister, I thought she is the world's most beautiful girl in the world, I started to love her the moment my eyes fell on her and swore that I will always protect her and for that, I have to become stronger, strong enough to thwart any danger that came in her way.
With that thought, I let the suppression wash over me. In such powerful suppression, I lost the ability to think and now holding on to a single thought in the immense suppressions through the sheer will.
There is only one though remain in my mind and that is to hold on, hold on as long as possible as only then will I able to get the greatest reward.
Times passed by as I kept enduring the suppression through my sheer will but finally, the moment comes when I couldn't hold off anymore as the last spark of my will started doused off from the raging wind of suppression.
The final moment! I thought as I kept holding on that dousing spark of Will when suddenly the spark of will that had nearly doused off burned with resplendent brightness that it had cleared away all the suppression I was feeling and my thoughts have become so clear that I felt like, if I wanted to I could remember every single memory of my life or solve the hardest problem that puzzled me but before I could do any of that I fainted.