Chapter 1061 (1/2)

Chu Yuan still mentioned the event that happened five years ago that I will never forget.

”That year, I was in hospital because I made him angry, but he refused to hit me or scold me. He often hid himself secretly and hurt himself. He no longer went home on time, no longer talked to me, and when he was in front of his parents, he would force himself to smile at me. Although I was only eleven at that time, I could feel what his seemingly innocent smile meant, always It's him who manages to be mature, and treats me as a child, and as a younger sister who doesn't understand, so as to persuade himself not to lose his temper. So the three words I hate most are ”little child”. The thing I hate most is that I can only be his younger sister. In order to prove that I'm not a child, I'm just like little purple, who will recognize me very much whether quarreling or coquetting with him Really big girl, I sat outside my house all night waiting for him to go home. I can't remember that day very well. There are only three things I can think of: snow is very heavy, it's cold, I didn't wait for him '

this is the first time I' heard 'Chu Yuan mention that. No matter when she was in hospital or after she was discharged from hospital, we all have tacit selective forgetting. General, master My son and stepmother never blamed me or even asked me the reason for Chuyuan's suicide. Besides waking up, Chuyuan asked me vaguely, ”did brother go home?” he deleted that memory from his brain, so that every time I was threatened by her, ”if you don't appear in front of me in XX minutes, I will roll the stairs.” cloud Cloud, can't help but doubt that she sat in the snow all night, is small purple just left that period of time, I had a nightmare.

I admit that guilt burnished my courage and let me give up my reason. So I kept running away, and then I didn't dare to prove a question that I was extremely curious about: Chu Yuan was almost killed by me. Why didn't she hate me? Why didn't my parents blame me?

Now, I found the answer -

'when I was in a coma in the hospital, my father and mother peeped into the diary I hid at home. Later, my mother told me that it was not my diary anymore, but the diary I wrote for my brother, because every article was about him, I was not looking at him, I was thinking about him, I was not thinking about what he was thinking when he was in a trance today, I was holding him Sister Qiu Xiaozi secretly kissed him before calling him to get up this morning. They held hands again on the way to school. Sister Xiao Zi lied that there was only one blueberry ice cream left, and then they ate it separately. Mother said that only when they like one person can they look at him all the time, think about him all the time, and look at the girls around him all the time. Another Always learning from her.

So I dare not write him in the diary any more, because I know that mom and dad will continue to peek at my diary, because I am their daughter, because my brother and I are brothers and sisters.

So I don't dare to stick to my brother any more. In front of him, I always pretend to be very fierce and irritated. I'm afraid that he will ignore me if he feels that I like him.

I also hope that when he gets angry with me, he can beat me and scold me. I hate his smiling face, which is the proof that he doesn't like me, or that his brother loves his sister. I don't want to be the forever child in his eyes, nor the serious forever younger sister. ”

Chu Yuan didn't admit to her parents that she was in love with her brother. Later on, she was always cruel to me. In fact, there was a disguised element, that is, I don't know if my parents believed it or not. I think it should be believed. Otherwise, it's smart like me. Why haven't they ever found out that they have the slightest vigilance about my relationship with Chu Yuan? Even if there's only a little doubt, they can't agree that Chu Yuan, who has become a girl, has moved to live with me, a single man in the ”estrus period”, which gives us such a big space to get along, but they don't care? Since Chu Yuan moved to me, it seems that her parents have never come to visit her on their own initiative. But if they believe it, why does her stepmother always make fun of my relationship with Chu Yuan?

My parents are senior people. I can't guess what they think, but one thing is for sure. After Chu Yuan's serious illness, their silence was due to reading her diary. They should be looking for the cause of Chu Yuan's' suicide '. As a result, they were wrong. They found the brother Control Tendency of stinky girls. They didn't mention it afterwards. Nine times they were afraid that I would be confused After Yuan's thought, I turned to younger brother control, and then there was thunder and fire, and I couldn't deal with it at a time My mood, it's really like what my mother said, I've been looking at him and thinking about him. Without his notes, it's like a meal without salt. No matter how good it looks, it's tasteless.

So when I was 11 years old, I was just writing a diary. I never had the impulse to read it again. On the contrary, I was full of fear. Although I was so happy every day, I couldn't find his name in my memory. It was terrible.

If I can't find him in my life, it must be more terrible.Today, I have experienced life and death, so I understand a truth: the reason why people strive to live is to create memories.

So I decided that I would write a diary again, only for me and his diary. I would like to have him in every diary, just like every day in my life. So, the name of this diary is called ”little Pervert's brother control diary” -

if it's wrong to love him, I'd like to be a little pervert in the end.

If there's no mistake in loving him, I'd rather be called brother controlled little pervert, because only the loser will call me ”'