Chapter 872 (1/1)
”Your father is always cool and calm, but in terms of feelings, he always looks forward and vacillates. It's not because he's dull, but because he thinks too much. He's always worried about others, but often ignores himself. In those days, your sister Yue was so obsessed with him that he was not a stone man. How could he not be moved? What can be feared is not to accept her. Why? Love between teachers and students, many topics, and I think your sister Yue is young and beautiful, and has a great future. What about him? The old man in his 40s still has a kid who says ”big, big and small”. No matter your sister Yue's family members or their friends and colleagues, they will inevitably have some strange eyes and words. He is afraid that you sister Yue can't stand it, but he hasn't been stereotyped to this extent, which is not the main reason. What he is afraid of most is that you will have ideas, so that you can't accept someone to take them I took your mother's place. When he knew that you didn't contradict this, I came out with fate. ”My stepmother's eyes were red again. Although she didn't drink, she was infected by sister Yue. She was a little drunk. Her voice was slow and calm, as if she was telling the story of others who had nothing to do with her. Anyone could hear it. The shaking in the memory was deliberately suppressed“ When I married your father, I was not greedy for comfort or afraid of suffering. But your sister Yue scolded me for being selfish and self righteous, but she didn't wronged me. At that time, when fate grew up day by day, other people's children went to kindergarten when they were three or four years old. How about her? Until she was five years old, she was still locked at home by me. She was not healthy, weak and often sick. At that time, she had no registered permanent residence. No kindergarten wanted to accept her. Every time the children who were lying at the window looking out of the window played with their parents, she would ask me why she didn't have a father. Every time I asked that, I felt like a knife in my heart. I didn't know how to answer her question At weekends, I was so busy with my work that I even forgot my fate and was afraid of thunder. I came home late. I opened the door and found that the room was dark and I couldn't see anything. I was scared and shouted to her, but I couldn't hear her answer. I found her everywhere. Finally, I found her in the wardrobe. She was wrapped in a quilt and shrank in the corner of the wardrobe like a little mouse. She had a high fever and fell asleep Even if she fell asleep, she was still crying and shivering that night I held her and cried. I finally knew that I alone, a person like me who can't even take care of herself, can't take care of her at all. Once I thought I had the ability to bring her to Beitian alone. That's what I thought I was right? My self-confidence collapsed. Suddenly I felt that I couldn't hold on any longer. In Beitian, I had no family or reason. The only thing I believed was your father, my former teacher. At that time, we hadn't contacted each other for many years, but I suddenly thought of him, because he also took a child with him, but he could take good care of his work and life. I asked him for help Help, ask him to tell me, what should I do? I remember very clearly. Your father only said two words to me that day. The first one, after I said bitter water, asked me to take him to see Yuanyuan at home. Then he sat on my sofa and played with Yuanyuan for a whole afternoon, watching TV with her, building blocks, putting up puzzles until he left after supper, He just said the second sentence to me. He told me that what this child needs is a complete home. He said that he can help me ”
about Chuyuan's biological father, like Chuyuan, I know nothing so far. My stepmother not only never mentioned it, but even didn't have a picture of him. I don't know whether Chuyuan's stinky girl is heartless or used to this vacancy. Or It's because the vacancy has been filled by the old man. She never seems curious. Instead, I asked the old man. But the old man taught me a lesson very seriously. He said that the real man would not ask about the past year that the woman didn't want to mention. I was only 13 years old. Little Chu Nan just began to have long hair, so suddenly realized that I was a real man Men now ponder that it was the stepmother's past that the old man must have known, so they chose to give up their love for Yuejie. They don't say it, but they can only prove that it is a love that can't be recalled for the stepmother
the stepmother's forgotten eyes are moist, and she laughs reproachfully, ”at that time, I was really vulnerable I have no confidence in Gu Yuanyuan. I don't know that Yue Yue still hasn't given up pursuing your father at that time. If I knew, I would certainly not get involved in their life, but your father concealed Yue Yue's affairs from me. Yue Yue quit voluntarily, just like your father, because they knew that I was a person without other people's care It's just that you Yuejie didn't hate me or even scold me. She knows I'm guilty, so she didn't disappear from my life. She got married, but it's not because she forgot your father, or because she found someone she likes. She just wanted to show up in front of me again, let me know, let your father know, she's very happy It's very happy. In order to make our hearts less guilty, but she has been living in guilt, because she doesn't love her husband ”
it seems that there is something wrapped around my heart, tightening slowly, which makes me feel a kind of uncomfortable suffocation. I don't know what to say, nor how to comfort my stepmother. What I can feel, it seems that sister Yue is repressed in the bottom of her heart ”She is a fool, because she sympathizes with me and fate, giving up the feelings that are already at hand, your father is also a fool, because he can't turn a blind eye to me and fate, he gave up the feeling that he wavers and yearns for, until they miss it, they find that they have lost happiness forever is my fault, both of them It's because of my self-esteem, my self-sufficiency, my selfishness, my willfulness, because I don't have the ability to take care of myself and fate, which makes them miss each other. The reason why your sister Yue was angry with me just now is because I made that mistake again, thinking that I have done well and I can do well, but forgetting a lot of things I have done wrong Forget my self righteousness, how many people will be hurt before, now and in the future ””Mom”
I want to wipe tears from the corner of my stepmother's eyes, but she wiped two of them with her sleeves, then patted me on the chest and smiled: ”Xiaonan, do you know why sister Yue worried about you? Because she is the one who is too similar to your father. She is afraid that you will miss the happiness you deserve in the accommodation. I hope you are as gentle and kind as your father and Yue Yue Yue. But don't repeat their tragedy. Don't let the one who likes you sad. Don't make the choice that you regret. The girl who can make you like must be a good girl, Su Su is, I believe that the girl who hung the underwear in your house is also, I am a fool, I don't know how to choose how to face it if it is me, but you are so smart, you must understand, right? ”
I don't understand, but I nodded, ”Mom, do you love dad?”
My stepmother was stunned, and then knocked on my forehead, ”what do you say?”
”Love!” It's probably the first time in my life that I've made no secret of what I'm looking for. It's also the first time that I'm full of fear about the answers I'm looking forward to.
My stepmother didn't answer my question positively, smiled, but told me seriously: ”when you feel guilty for someone and think you have deprived that person's happiness, you will find that you don't know what love is anymore, because you dare not love and don't deserve to love.”
”but I think, even if you miss sister Yue, dad is still very happy, because you are there Side ”
” even happiness is not complete happiness, but also regret happiness, ”the stepmother said to Yuejie in the car,” Yueyue can continue to be a friend with me, but dare not see your father. Your father always pretends to ask me about Yueyue's recent situation naturally and casually, but never asks me for her phone number. Isn't that the evidence that I can't put down? The affair of affection is irresistible and can't help it. Your sister Yue's marriage is not satisfactory. She doesn't love her husband, and her husband doesn't love her either. Their combination is the words of the matchmaker of parents' orders. After two years of marriage, she has been separated from strangers. If you sister Yue is really happy, will she be afraid to see your father? It's because of unhappiness that she's afraid of the temptation of happiness to introduce you and Shu Tong. She didn't want to show up. How much saliva did I spend to persuade her? Seeing that you are so diligent, I don't know which life I'll have to wait for her to meet your father. ”
I laugh,” how can I listen to you, as if I want to make my father and sister Yue ”
my stepmother blink,” Yeah, can't I? ”
I was startled and lost my voice. ”Aren't you serious?!”
”Of course not,” my stepmother gently twisted my face and said with a smile: ”once can't be changed, but it can't always indulge in the once, and then don't face the future? I want them to meet. I want them to untie the knot in their hearts. ”