148 Old scars (1/2)

Aarvi had curled up against Aaron in the swing tired of crying due to the reopening of every wound created by her parents. She started hiccuping but the silent tears still flew out.

He hadn't and didn't dare to leave her the entire time, he silently heard her painful words, felt the scars that she had buried deep inside her.

He felt himself tremble, heart tug uncontrollably just by hearing her, he couldn't imagine the pain she went through and the agony she was in by reminiscing the past most hurtful period of her life. He didn't want to think of counting how many times she had cried alone, how many times she was left alone yet how she stood back and smiled hiding everything behind it, burying the deepest scars in her heart.

He wished she should have forgotten all these instead of him.

He noticed one thing, she went missing right after he left the country. She was lost, she was confused after it. He strongly felt she lost her memory of his as soon as he left, 'does that mean she was caught by the people who wanted to kill me?' He didn't have a response but he weirdly felt he is the reason behind her memory loss.

However, he didn't want to remind her anything anymore, looking at her struggling to even breathe.

He knew he gave her pain too by giving her hope of happiness being in her life for two years and disappeared without a word sending her back to the world of heartless cruel people.

Why wasn't she allowed to be happy?

Why does she have a struggle for every little happiness?

Why is her life full of struggle to live through it?

Why does she have to endure everything alone?

He wanted to see her face, assure her that nothing will go wrong again but she didn't let him see her.

'Nothing will go wrong? Everything is going to be alright?' he wanted to prove it instead of saying words like her grandfather who stood helpless when she endured everything alone.

Small or big, he wanted to shield her from all the problems. If not, face it with her and be with her.

Even he wanted to know what was her mistake, taking birth? Isn't that her parents' negligence? Enduring silently for so long? If she had rebelled back, would she be living a better life?

Then what was her mistake? Living? Being alive? For winning on her life-threatening situation every time?

She wasn't only abused mentally by cursing her to die, she was physically tortured too, probably that was the reason she never dared to rebel, or was she too soft-hearted?

He knew well, his little Cupcake would choose to cry herself and endure the pain instead of seeing somebody having a problem. Probably she didn't want her parents to be sad and chose herself to bear everything hoping one day, they would stop and notice her.

'How could any parents be so stone-hearted to their own biological daughter who expected nothing but just a word, a smile, or a pat?'

'Are they too much to ask for?'

When everyone's childhood is filled with happiness, parents' love, care, good memories, why does she have only pain? Even the word pain wouldn't measure how much she suffered.

He knew she was never taught of many things, she read in books, looked at others, and learned. When all teenage girls read books of first love, love between the couple, he had seen her reading books on mother's love or parents' love.

When every girl dreamed of prince charming owning a castle riding a white horse, her dream was just her parents' love and care, just the tiniest fraction.

Perhaps he should have brought her book that had a cruel mother and the girl who rebelled back. However, his Cupcake was too innocent to read such books. She might have cried for the little girl in it and tried to think about what made the mother so unhappy.

Doesn't he know her better?