Chapter 1108 - First day of the new White Foundation (7) (1/2)
Outside…
”Sarah, please…”, Aiden was not sure what to say to get Sarah to stop moving.
No matter what he said, she is not responding. And she is faster than he is. Aiden can see that she is increasing the distance between them.
Aiden lost her in a forest behind the property where the White Mansion is few minutes ago. Aiden knows her location only because of GPS tracking and Eve-vision which is giving him live updates on Sarah's position compared to his.
Aiden leaned on a nearby tree while catching his breath. ”Love, running will not solve anything.”
”This can't be solved.”, Sarah's voice rang from his ear stud.
Aiden was happy that she responded. So far, it was a complete silence from Sarah's side, and he started doubting that the ear studs malfunctioned. ”I know it's all my fault. I don't know how to fix it, but I need you to stop running.”
Aiden exhaled in relief when he observed on the distance meter that she stopped running.
Few seconds later, Sarah responded: ”It's not your fault. I can't blame you for things that happened before we met. It's me… I'm unable to control myself. Stop following me. I need time to cool off.”
”Take all the time you need, love. But don't expect me to stay away.”
Aiden remembered Miss Bell's words and his heart ached. He is aware that he would go ballistic if Sarah's ex shows up and starts talking about Sarah's performance in bed. No matter when it happened, to know that she was intimate with anyone other than him, and to hear that person talk about it… he would be livid.
Few seconds later, Aiden saw that the distance between him and Sarah is rapidly increasing. Sarah is running again and with every additional meter of space in-between them, he felt like she is taking all the oxygen with her away. It was difficult to breathe.
Aiden is miserable because he knows that this is because of him. Instead of waiting for the true love to come, he was playing around without thinking about the consequences. And now the person he loves the most is hurting. And he is devastated because he can only watch helplessly without any way to fix it, but he has to try something. Staying quiet is the same as giving up and he is not willing to give up on them.
”Sarah, I carry the weight of my past, and I am sorry beyond words that you are hurt every time it's brought up. You are my light and I will always selfishly stay by your side and hope that your light will shine on me and make me a better person. Please, stop moving away from me. I need you.”
Sarah heard the anguish in his voice. She does not want him to suffer because of her inability to keep the past where it belongs. ”I don't want to release my anger on you. Just… give me space.”
”That is the only thing I will never give you. If you are angry, I will take it. It will hurt less than to stay away from you. Hit me if that is what you need to feel better, do whatever you want with me but don't leave.”
”Why are you so stubborn?”, Sarah asked under her breath.
”I can ask you the same thing. Stop running away and come back. Or at least wait for me to catch up. My arms are empty, and they are made for holding you… I am sorry that it took me so long to realize how immature my behavior was. I am sorry that before I met you I didn't understand that I can be happy only with the person who is right for me. I am sorry that my past stupidity is coming back over and over again and causing you pain which I am unable to soothe...” The feeling of helplessness consumed him. Aiden's voice cracked, and he slid on the ground with his back against the tree.
He wondered, when will this stop? Will this vicious circle ever stop? Can he expect that Sarah gets used to this?