Chapter 157: Break down (3) (1/2)

“First, let’s start with solidifying your image.”

I sat still, cross-legged, for hours. What he said was simple. I had to endlessly study and examine myself until I could freely change my outer appearance. Following his directions, I kept contemplating ‘myself’.

‘I have to reach the minimum standard, at least.’

To deal with the boss that the Clown revered so much, and the Traveler, who was probably even stronger than him, I would need an airtight plan. And for the plan to work smoothly, I would need a minimal amount of force.

Even with the perfect strategy to topple a giant castle wall, you can’t carry it out with nothing in your hands.

‘I’ll train for a few hours and then wander around Utopia for a few hours to collect information on the Clown’s boss.’

The Clown was already breaking down. Any Transcendent that reached a certain level would soon notice the change that happened to him, and they would also know that something is going wrong. I didn’t have much time. Before that happened, I needed to hold a weapon that was powerful enough.

Whew. I let out a breath.

And I emptied my mind. It was time to focus on my training. Following the Traveler’s advice, I envisioned the parts that made up the living being Jeong Si-woo.

Analyst, hunter, a boy who experienced tragedy when he was young, a human that miraculously went back in time and lived life twice. I vividly thought of every trivial moment of my life. Every little memory.

‘My talent helped me when I was an Analyst.’

My memories were denser than that of others. Unlike them, who remembered things like a photographed image, I held every sensation and thought I had at the moment in detail. This talent allowed me to be exceptionally observant and insightful, which saved me from countless dangers. Thinking back, it was a talent that was perfect for a Transcendent, as well.

‘He said that the moment I lose my prejudice towards appearances, I’d be able to break away.’

My appearance that I was envisioning in my mind. My face, the fuzz on my face, every strand of hair, and the color of my eyes.

It wasn’t easy. But it wasn’t that difficult either. After all, I had never once been satisfied with my body.

‘I always wished it was stronger and more perfect.’

There was even a time when I wondered if I needed a monster’s body to fight against monsters. I also thought it wouldn’t be so bad to have an alien body, like in science fiction novels, so that I could analyze better. Those wishes made numerous types of me inside my mind.

The tip of my finger twitched.

I opened my eyes slightly and glanced at it.

‘…It’s not that difficult.’

From the tip of my little finger, an inhuman, sharp, and pointed claw was sticking out.

* * *

How could I live a life that isn’t boring?

He wondered this all his life.

In the very beginning, when there was only darkness, every moment felt like he was dead. Time painfully repeated itself, and the stillness was torture. His only joy was listening to the occasional sound of conversation and watching the movements of living beings similar to him.

“……!”

And an indeterminate amount of time passed that way. He repeated the same life over and over again until he noticed that a small change had happened in his daily life.

His large, hideous eye scanned over the area full of pure darkness. A very small light was sparkling in the darkness. It was a star. A planet. It was the first moment that the thing Transcendents called dimensions appeared.

Unlike the purposeless Transcendents floating around, the living beings that appeared in the dimensions moved with different purposes.

Since their bodies were inferior, they had to constantly look for food and water to survive. They had to kill others to stay alive, and sometimes they lived to protect things.

It was shocking. The creatures lived and thought in a completely different way from him. He became fascinated with them, and he wanted to have them first. He wanted to keep them for himself and hide them away from everyone else’s sight.

“Ah…….”

And his wish soon came true. He originated from the beginning of time, and his desire became power. The creatures living on the first star soon belonged to him. And he observed how they lived and died for hundreds of years. It was interesting. It was the first entertainment that he, who originated from the beginning of time, enjoyed.

“But… This is the same every day, as well.”

However, he always sought new things and eventually became bored. He didn’t abandon the planet. Instead, after watching the mortals’ lives for some time, he brought about change in the residents of the first star. He instilled desire into the creatures that had only sought to survive.

What he did first was simple.

He increased basic urges, such as hunger and sexual desire, so much that they were above average. Then strange things began to happen. The creatures that used to fight each other to survive started to fight for other reasons, as well.

To win women, for abundant food, etc. He found it entertaining. It was something new. And that was the beginning.

They tried to steal others’ spouses, used violence to assert superiority, and created certain drugs for pleasures they couldn’t feel using normal methods.

The first star began to ruin rapidly.

As he watched them fall, he laughed. And then, he discovered many similar stars. destroyed the stars for no reason, or he ascended upon them as if he were some greater being and wielded all sorts of power.

“…Still, this is the most interesting.”

of entertainment, he finally chose to watch. He caused the numerous stars he owned to collide with each other, and he watched the countless wars and desperate screams that occurred in the process.

It was fun. Those tiny creatures acted like they were some sort of heroes and headed towards destruction, blinded by greed. It was amusing.

“I’d like to… show it off to others.”

It felt like a pity to watch alone. He once wanted to keep all of it to himself, but now he wanted to share this fun with the other beings like him that were just stupidly floating around.

To be exact, he wanted to feel superior by sharing this pleasure. He was the first to discover it. He was the one who created this great entertainment and got rid of their boredom.