Part 36 (1/2)

I was exasperated ”He is just eagerly waiting for this opportunity!”

My guru silently resumed his walk; I soon reached the schoolreeted me with a friendly warmth that abruptly vanished as soon as I y, the servant left me and entered his ecaused by preparations for his trip

Finally I knocked at the front door

”Behari left by the back stairs about thirty ht s whether my invitation had been too coercive or whether Master's unseen influence were at work Passing the Christian church, again I sawto hear o! Nohat are your plans?”

I felt like a recalcitrant child who is deter to ask my uncle to lend me his servant, Lal Dhari”

”See your uncle if you want to,” Sri Yukteswar replied with a chuckle ”But I hardly think you will enjoy the visit”

Apprehensive but rebellious, I left uru and entered Seraovern today with some friends for Kash forward to this Himalayan trip”

”I a I can do to ave ement ”Dear uncle,” I said, ”could you possibly spare me your servant, Lal Dhari?”

My simple request had the effect of an earthquake Uncle jumped so violently that his chair overturned, the papers on the desk flew in every direction, and his pipe, a long, coconut-stereat clatter

”You selfish youngrath, ”what a preposterous idea! Who will look after me, if you take my servant on one of your pleasure jaunts?”

I concealed e of front was only one ma in a day fully devoted to incomprehensibility My retreat fronified

I returned to the herathered Conviction was growing on ly recondite motive was behind Master's attitude Reuru's will

”Mukunda, wouldn't you like to stay awhile longer with o ahead now, and wait for you at Calcutta There will be plenty of ti Calcutta for Kasho without you,” I said htest attention to e and departed with all the luggage

Kanai and I sat quietly at our guru's feet After a half hour of complete silence, Master rose and walked toward the second-floor dining patio

”Kanai, please serve Mukunda's food His train leaves soon”

Getting up frohastly churning sensation inpain was so intense that I felt I had been abruptly hurled into souru, I collapsed before him, attacked by all symptoms of the dread Asiatic cholera Sri Yukteswar and Kanai carried ony, I cried, ”Master, I surrender my life to you;”

for I believed it was indeed fast ebbing from the shores ofelic tenderness