Chapter 33 - I said something was impossible (2/2)

Also, he was standing in the middle of the room. His complexion that was lit up by the lamp he was holding, seemed even worse than the last time that I had seen him.

Standing in front of all of us that had come in, Sirius seemed so tired and looked like he was ready to give up on everything, but…… He met my eyes and opened his eyes wide.

“……Why are you here?”

He seemed to be extremely surprised. Huh? I definitely thought that he knew I had woken up and so he was hiding here, but…… Maybe he didn’t know?

“The sleeping magic has been cancelled out.”

If you don’t know, I guess I’ll just tell you.

“That’s not it! Obviously the magic’s been cancelled out! ……Meeting my eyes like this, why are you appearing in front of such a me again!”

He had a grim look on his face as he shouted.

“Ahh, that’s what you meant.”

What he meant was the same as my friends, when I had decided to come here myself, giving all of them such a hard time.

But…… This is unexpected, for he himself to also say such a thing……

Certainly, he had told me so many things full of malicious intent, and used dark magic on me. Sleeping forever until my life runs out is what he said, but……

Well, I was able to properly wake up, and no harm was done, and it’s only to the point where my body got a little creaky from sleeping too much. What’s more, I feel rather refreshed because I slept so much. Those are my honest feelings.

“I don’t really think that you did anything that terrible to me.”

“……You, do you not understand what I’ve done to you?”

Ahh, it seems that he’s looking at me like I’m an idiot or something. How very regrettable.

“No, I understand it properly. You used dark magic to make me sleep, right?”

“That’s right! And I was trying to take away your life!”

Sirius said so with a grim look on his face. However……

“Mmm~. That’s a lie.”

“……A lie, you say……”

Sirius’s expression became even darker, but I ignored it and continued on.

“I mean, if you really had intended to kill me, it would have been much easier to just kill me right there while I was asleep.”

There were no witnesses at all in the garden, it was probably just the two of us, it would have been much easier to take my life there than going to all the trouble of putting me to sleep and waiting for such a long time. Even for me, who’s not that smart, I noticed such a thing, there’s no way that the prodigy in front of me shouldn’t be able to realize that as well.

That’s why, he wasn’t really trying to kill me, is what I concluded.

“………”

While Sirius just stood there at a loss for what to say, I continued speaking.

“I came here because I wanted to properly talk to president one more time.”

“……Talk……”

“That’s right. At that time, president…… Had such a painful expression on your face…… And because you were crying……”

Honestly speaking, the words that he said at that time, I’ve already mostly forgotten, but…… Well, there’s no way about it because I had been in such a deep dream for two days.

However…… Before I fainted, only the bitter look on Sirius’s face, and the way he was crying, I couldn’t forget at all. Why is it that he seemed to be in such pain…… I had always been worried about it.

“……That’s why, one more time, I would like for you to hear me out……”

When I said so and looked at Sirius, his face became really distorted.

“……You hypocrite…… So what you’re saying is, you’re going to save me like how you’ve saved everyone else? Saint Katarina Claes-sama.”

He spat out the words like he was being sarcastic.

Hypocrite? Save? Saint? What is he talking about, I have no idea whatsoever. Come to think of it…… A-chan said it as well during the end…… “You’ll save the president as well.” But……

“That’s not possible!”

While looking directly at Sirius, I flatly disagreed.

“After all, I’m not the heroine. I’m just an evil villainess rival character, there’s no way I can save anyone!”

My words must have been too unexpected, since Sirius was frozen solid with his mouth wide agape.

Everyone that came along with me was raising questions like “rival character? Evil villainess?” as well.

Although I let it slip involuntarily, everyone doesn’t understand what I meant as well. They might just think that I said something weird is all.

Even so, those words were the truth. In this otome game world, I’m just one of the heroine’s rival characters, a noble girl villainess. What’s more, the other rival characters are beauties like Mary or Sophia, with strong magic and smart as well, I can’t even compare. I’m not really much of a beauty, my magic is shabby, I’m not smart, I’m such a regrettable rival character. That’s me, Katarina Claes. For such a me, being able to overcome other people’s traumas like a heroine, and healing their wounded hearts is impossible to do.

Even so, if there’s one thing that even I can do, it’s -

“Although I can’t save you from your suffering, but…… But, I can stay by your side.”

Since I’m just an evil villainess, I have no power to save others. But, I can stay by his side.

“If I’m by your side, when you’re sad, or having a hard time I can listen to you, and be together with you until you’re feeling better again.”

Suddenly remembering my memories from a previous life, and realizing that I was a villainess with only destruction flags, I’ve worked so hard every day. I’ve had hard times and painful times as well. And, everyone had always been there for me. They would be with me and listen to me until I felt better again. That’s why I was able to work hard up until now.

And by my side, are friends that are really reassuring and can do anything. Someone like me doesn’t have the power to save him but, if it’s my friends, I’m sure that they’ll be able to do something for him.

Little by little, I got closer to Sirius.

“That’s why, don’t cry by yourself.”

Almost as if a dam had broken inside, Sirius was crying painfully. I wonder exactly what he’s suffering about, why is he in so much pain? Right now, I still don’t understand anything.

But…… In a dark room like this, it’s too sad if he has to withhold his voice and cry alone. It would just increase his pain more and more.

Then, when he reached his limit, he might really start off onto such a terrible bad end.

In order for that not to happen - In order to prevent such a bad end -

“Let’s go together - Rafael.”

I reached out my hand to Sirius who was crying all over the place, and I called out his real name that I had heard from A-chan. When I called it, Sirius - Rafael, opened his tear-filled eyes wide.

Honestly, I don’t really understand what it means by his real name, but…… Even so, it does seem like he has such a name as well.

Rafael nervously took my hand that I was reaching out to him.

Because his hand that touched mine was very cool to the touch, I wrapped his hand in both of mine.

“It’s alright.”

To Rafael who kept crying, I smiled in order to try and cheer him up. All the while trying to make sure it didn’t become a nasty villainous smile.

“The black mist is gone……”

I didn’t really understand the meaning of the words that Maria had muttered behind me, but……

When I looked at Rafael’s sopping wet eyes, they had a gentle look to them that I knew well.