Chapter 30 - My heart is in a mess (2/2)
Dark and light magic counter each other.
Since Maria Campbell has light magic…… Maybe that’s why she can see the evidence of dark magic……
She was firmly looking at me with a severe look on her face…… As expected, if I keep going on like this, things might get difficult for me. In that case……
“Haha, as expected of a holder of light magic. That’s right. I was behind this incident. All in order to get rid of that annoying girl.”
“!?”
I walked slowly towards Maria who was frozen still while staring at me. I can’t activate dark magic unless I’m touching them, so I reached out my arm and touched Maria on her shoulder.
“……But, it’s better if you don’t know those things anymore.”
I used dark magic to erase all the bad things about me from Maria’s memory, and in a few seconds, Maria will have forgotten our entire conversation today. That’s how it was supposed to be…… But……
“Well then, Maria-san. Classes are about to start, so let’s return to the classrooms.”
“……What are you talking about? President. I’m not done talking with you yet.”
Maria had a dubious expression on her face.
……It couldn’t be……
Once again, I tried using dark magic on Maria, but……
“What exactly have you been trying to do just now?”
Maria kept looking at me with a dubious look on her face…… It seems that my magic doesn’t work on her…… It can’t be, as a holder of light magic…… Does dark magic not work on her……
If I can’t erase her memory…… Then, I can’t let her go just like this.
“President, why is it that Katarina-sama……”
Since magic doesn’t work on Maria, I just knocked her out with a physical attack instead.
Maria’s learned something she doesn’t need to know, there’s no way I can just let her return to Katarina and the others just like this without having erased her memories. And so, I moved the unconscious Maria to a secret room within the school.
Everything’s been going well up until now, and this is the first major blunder I’ve committed.
This is also…… all Katarina Claes’s fault……
“That girl’s in the way” is what the other me was telling myself.
Katarina and her friends immediately found out that Maria was missing.
And so, they did their very best to search for Maria.
About the existence of this secret room at school, only a few people in the Deek family know about it, and they shouldn’t be able to find it so easily, but……
At any rate, I can’t just keep Maria locked up in there forever. I tried using dark magic on Maria many times over after that, and I was lost at what to do with her since she’s completely unaffected by magic……
“Rather than leaving her like this, let’s kill her to shut her up forever” is what the other me was beginning to say.
The fourth day after Maria’s confinement began, I went to see how she was doing during a self-study break. Maria seemed to be quite down, and I wondered if dark magic would finally work on her now as I spied on her, but…… Even though she’s been confined to a small and dark room, Maria was still standing firm.
In disgust at the way she hadn’t changed at all, and on my way back to the campus, I found a single person all by her lonesome sitting on a bench in the school garden.
That person was Katarina Claes, the main person responsible for driving me into this predicament.
“Katarina-san? What are you doing in a place like this?”
Katarina seemed to be really surprised at the voice behind her as she looked back.
“Uh, uhh…… I wasn’t feeling well, so I was just resting in the infirmary, and I was about to return to the classrooms……”
Indeed, as she said, she didn’t look well.
“So that’s how it was. But, we still haven’t found Maria-san yet, it’s dangerous to be here by yourself in such an out-of-the-way place such as this. I’ll accompany you.”
As the student council president Sirius Deek, I have to act like this. And so, I stretched out my hand for her to take.
“Th, thank you very much.”
When Katarina placed her hand in mine with a smile - just like always, my heart started getting discomposed.
I’m feeling really uncomfortable from how sunny the garden is. I really want to get back to the classrooms as soon as possible.
But for some reason, Katarina froze up after taking my hand.
“Katarina-san, what’s the matter?”
When I asked her, Katarina just stared straight at me with those light blue eyes of hers. Then -
“President…… Do you have dark magic? And, what did you do to Maria?”
I’m really badly shaken but… Because of my long years of acting, I was able to reply smoothly.
“………What’s dark magic?”
I acted as if I’d never heard of dark magic before, and pretended to be confused.
Katarina seemed to be thinking about something as she tilted her head.
Why did she ask me something like this so suddenly…… In the first place, does she know something about dark magic, or did one of her excellent knights detect something……
However, I can’t admit that I know anything right now. Katarina doesn’t seem to be so sure of the answer like Maria was, so it shouldn’t be too hard to deceive her. Even though that’s what I intended……
“That’s right. You’ve probably never heard of such a thing. It’s impossible that such a gentle president would do anything to Maria and us with the power of dark magic. I’m sorry for asking you such a weird thing.”
When I saw how Katarina was laughing like usual as she said so - something within me snapped.
Before I realized it, the calm mask of Sirius Deek that I had been wearing for many years had completely fallen off.
“……President……?
Katarina seemed to be a bit shaken as she looked at me.
“……Gentle…… You said I’m always like that, right.”
“……I mean, since president is really gentle and all……”
Even after seeing my mask fall off, Katarina’s still saying such things. She’s really stupid.
“That’s all just acting. It’s really easy to pretend to be gentle and calm. It looks like it was so easy to fool all you idiots, eh.”
“!?”
At seeing how Katarina opened her eyes wide in surprise, a smile appeared on my face because of how idiotic she was.
“By the way, I also kidnapped Maria Campbell. Because she found something out that she shouldn’t have. Also, Katarina Claes, I really hate you. Saying that you’re helping those that are lonely, saving people with the intention of being a hypocrite! I can’t help but be irritated whenever I look at you!”
It was as if everything that had been bottled up inside me came pouring out the moment that the dam within me broke.
“You should just disappear somewhere already!”
I had nothing but words full of hatred and malice for the girl in front of me.
With this, Katarina should be quite afraid of me…… She might even look at me and return the same kind of words full of hatred and malice back to me at this rate. That’s what I thought, but……
“……Are you alright?”
Katarina’s response was such a question…… And, for some reason, she was looking at me worriedly.
Why is this…… Why are you still looking at me with those eyes…… Did you even hear what I said just now…… Even though I just said I kidnapped Maria……
And then, Katarina reached out her other hand that I wasn’t holding, and touched my cheek, as gently as if she was caring for me.
Why…… Why…… Why……
Why aren’t you afraid of me, why don’t you hate me…… Don’t look at me with those eyes!
I knocked away the warm hand that was touching my cheek.
“……You hypocrite…… That’s enough out of you! Don’t bother yourself with me! Don’t get close to me! Don’t smile at me! ……Disappear from my sight already!”
If you look at me with those light blue eyes - If you get close to me - If you smile at me -
I won’t be the me that I’ve been up to now anymore……
“I’ll do anything for revenge” is what I’ve sworn, but I’m wavering - The other me kept urging me to “get rid of this girl” and -
At his urging, I used dark magic on her hand that I was still holding.
“Just go to sleep like that. Keep sleeping until your life runs out.”
In front of my eyes, Katarina slowly collapsed onto the ground -
I robbed her consciousness, and forced her into dreamland, and she’ll probably keep sleeping like this in a dream.
Until her life runs out -
With this, that annoying girl is finally gone. I’ll be able to live just like before, only thinking about revenge.
My heart won’t be in a mess anymore.
Even though that’s how it was supposed to be…… The pain wouldn’t disappear from my chest……
On the contrary…… At seeing Katarina asleep like that…… My heart became even more discomposed.
Something similar to water was dripping out of my eyes. Exactly what is this, I wonder.