180 Like you want me to kiss you (1/2)

”...and at that time, I couldn't stop thinking about you. I thought I was crazy because I had just seen you for the first time and, and you were already having such an effect on me.

I felt very strange, I never thought of any woman the way I did about you. All I wanted to do at that time was push you away from my mind and forget you, but it was not working.

I discovered that the more I tried to push you away, I hurt myself. So I decided to embrace it. ”

Liling was still watching him as he spoke, his eyes suddenly fluttered open and looked down at her. They were filled with different emotions as gazed at hers. Liling, not able to hold his gaze any longer, looked down at his chest. After sometime, Liu Wei continued;

”That type of feeling was new to me, I did not want to call it love at first, but when you appeared on that stage during your audition, I realized that it didn't matter that we've just met once. It didn't matter that the only thing I knew about you was your first name. All I was thinking about was to be with you, and at that moment, I knew I loved you. And that I wanted you. ”

At the end of his words, Liling looked up again, to find Liu Wei still staring down at her. She immediately tried looking away, but Liu Wei held her face up with his palm and stroked it gently.

”Liling... ”

”Mmm... ”

She raised her hand to hold the palm on her face, their eyes were locked in each other's, oblivious of everything else.

”From the moment I set my eyes on you, your mesmerizing eyes and beautiful smile, I wanted you, all of you. Even now you're here with me, it still feels like a mirage, like a dream. As though I'll wake up one morning to realize that you were never... ”

”Liu Wei... ”

Liling called soothingly, cutting him off. She lifted her hand to his face and traced his chiseled jaws and we'll carved cheeks, a small blush on her face. Her hands caressed his face as she looked him in the eyes.

”I cannot tell when I started loving you. I did not want what happened to my parents to happen to me, so I did not believe and never wanted to believe that love exists. I tried to tell myself that what I was feeling was not love, just a mere infatuation that would soon pass away. So when I started falling for you, I did not realize and even when I saw the signs, I dismissed them.

When it finally dawned on me that I was in love with you, I was scared. Scared that you did not feel the same way. Scared that I wasn't good enough for you. Scared that I was not the kind of person you would want to be with.

The both of them burst out laughing, Liu Wei picked her nose and it tickled, so Liling used her hand to rub on it.

And that day you told me you loved me, you cannot imagine how I felt. That moment, it didn't matter to me anymore, how it was going to end, or if it was the right thing to do. All I wanted at that moment was to be happy, and as much as I wanted to deny, I couldn't help accepting that my happiness is you. I love you Liu Wei, and I'm real, I'm not going anywhere, not in this lifetime anyway. ”

They both laughed again. Liu Wei took her palm which was on his face and kissed her tiny fingers as he gazed at her pitch black eyes which were staring intently at his.