55 The feeling of losing someone you love (1/2)

Liling stood in the verandah and let the gentle evening breeze brush through her skin. She had stood there for almost an hour staring directly into space.

Have you ever had someone you cherish so much, helplessly and slowly drifting away from you before your very eyes, but you could do nothing about it.

That feeling of losing someone you hold so dear.

Her father didn't love her, but she loved him so much. He had been there all her life, and if she was to chose, she would prefer that he was alive and was beating her everyday, If that could keep him alive, she would endure.

Her mom did not talk about the bills when they left the doctor's office, she had just walked slowly to the ward and sat down beside her dad, gently placing her head on the bed.

Just the sight of that broke down her little resolve. She ran upstairs to an empty verandah and cried her eyes out. She knew there was no money anywhere and her mom was already looking forward for the worst to come.

She had cried till her eye balls hurt. When Xin Yong called, she took her time and all the pretence she could muster to answer the call and pretend everything was okay. If the call had lasted another minute, she wasn't sure she was going to keep up the act.

The night was drawing near, so was the remaining days he had on earth.

He took to smoking and drinking a long time ago, though he was an addict it wasn't very noticeable on his physical appearance, or maybe it was just that she hadn't taken a close look.

But what she knew was that he had never fallen sick to this extent. It was very sudden.

Since this type of disease had signs, it would only mean that he had noticed it but he had chosen to ignore it.

She sighed heavily and leaned on the wall, her legs ached much since she had been standing for a very long time so she squatted down and buried her head in her palms.

One thing she knew was that crying and thinking wouldn't produce one million yuan for the surgery, so the earlier she started thinking of ways to get it, the better.

She immediately brought out her phone and clicked on the notes icon.

She started writing down names of people who she could go to for help.