Chapter 91: Holding Hands (1/2)
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Zhang Siyi felt like he was caught between the two besides him. He clearly explained his reasoning for refusing He Chengtian offer, but the way Gu Yu brought up the issue again, made him feel like he was being abducted. He didn’t want Gu Yu’s provoking statement to instigate any hard feelings between himself and He Chengtian.
After hearing what Gu Yu said, He Chengtian felt frustrated. He also began to doubt and question everything Zhang Siyi just told him. Didn’t he just say he didn’t accept because he likes architecture? Then why does it seem like the reason is because of Gu Yu? Also, this kid knew from the beginning that Gu Yu was Gu Yao sister, right? And he knew that Gu Yu was coming, even though he didn’t say anything himself, right?
Thinking of Zhang Siyi attitude, He Chengtian slapped his thigh in sudden revelation and came to a conclusion. That betraying brother! He must be aiming for Gu Yao himself!
Gu Yu’s abrupt statement easily unsettled Zhang Siyi’s and He Chengtian’s mood. Not paying attention to the film, both Zhang Siyi and He Chengtian were immersed in their own thoughts. In contrast, the culprit next to them sat on the soft theater seat and reclined comfortably with a happy face.
Unlike He Chengtian’s feeling of agitation, Gu Yu words caused a warm feeling to grow inside Zhang Siyi’s heart because his statement invoked the feeling of being wanted. Both Zhang Siyi’s heart and mind was full of Gu Yu and all he wanted to do was watch Gu Yu. Zhang Siyi couldn’t concentrate on the movie at all!
Sitting in close proximity of Gu Yu made Zhang feel drunk on his essence. The closeness of his breath…. The light fragrance…… He leaned in closer, and like a puppy, took a couple of deep breath to confirm Gu Yu was wearing cologne…… Even he wears cologne……
Zhang Siyi doesn’t mind the use of men’s fragrance. In the past he was prejudiced, but later, after living abroad, his attitude changed. He noticed many of the foreigners around him used men’s body spray. In particular, he remembered one of his architectural professors that came to class neatly dressed, with a hat and cane. His use of cologne made it very comfortable to be near him during the long days of class.
Since then, Zhang Siyi’s attitude towards men’s use of fragrance changed. The use of cologne was a symbol of someone with both financial means and social status, as well as personal care and charm. Even so, Asian body odor isn’t normally very strong. As long as one pays attention to personal hygiene, it is not necessary to put on men’s fragrance. This is the first time Zhang Siyi noticed Gu Yu wearing cologne.
An outdoor woody scent mixed with a hint of citrus wafted towards Zhang Siyi. Since he really liked the smell, he sniffed deeper. Because he had slept over at his house, he could identify Gu Yu’s natural body odor mixed with the fragrance. For this reason, Zhang Siyi greedily breathed in the surrounding air, trying to feel his essence for a long time and unbeknown to Zhang Siyi, he was getting closer and closer to Gu Yu in the process.
When he realized what was happening, he was already so close to Gu Yu that Zhang Siyi could simply place his head onto Gu Yu’s shoulder and rest. He glanced at his shoulder and the light reflected from the screen illuminated it enough to see the fuzzy sweater he was wearing; soft, warm and comfortable. With the rising heat in Zhang Siyi’s body, he had a sudden urge to lean on Gu Yu and rest his head. Fortunately, no one could see Zhang Siyi’s deep red cheeks in the dark theater.
In the past, not only has Zhang Siyi relied on Fu Xinhui shoulder to rest during a movie, but he also fell asleep leaning against Gu Yu during their first business trip as well as when they flew together on the plane. Once even, Zhang Siyi drooled on Gu Yu. Its very natural when the behavior is unconscious. However, why is it so difficult when one wants to do it deliberately?
Thinking of what to do, Zhang Siyi closed his eyes. Can he pretend to be asleep and then “accidentally” lean on Gu Xiao’s shoulder? ……No! It’s really hard to muster the courage. What if Gu Yu realized he was faking? Would he shun Zhang Siyi attempt?
As the yearning he had to be close to Gu Yu grew, the panic and stress of being rejected increased. This contradiction caused him to feel stressed. This is the first time Zhang Siyi experienced the suffering one felt when they liked someone. He realized his relationship with his ex-girlfriend wasn’t anything deep and that his first love belonged to Gu Yu.
Just as Zhang Siyi was hesitant, Gu Yu suddenly turned towards his ear and softly spoke to Zhang Siyi: “Sleepy? Then Rest here for a while.” He lifted his arm, reached around Zhang Siyi’s back and gently pushed Zhang Siyi’s head onto his shoulder.
Zhang Siyi: “…”
Like a mammal’s pheromones, the unique fragrance that belonged to Gu Yu overwhelmed Zhang Siyi. Shocked by Gu Yu’s action, Zhang Siyi sat still and lost his chance to refuse and escape. The loud thumping in his chest overshadowed the sound of the film.
Zhang Siyi was barely aware he whispered back “Hmm” as his thoughts were still focused on the sensations that he felt while Gu Yu’s hand was touching half of his face and wondered if Gu Yu’s palm was cool, or was his face too hot.
It felt so easy and natural to lean on Gu Yu. When Zhang Siyi thought of the thing he wanted and then for Gu Yu to react, like he had read Zhang Siyi mind, made him feel extraordinarily happy.
Because Gu Yu inexplicable “understanding”, Zhang Siyi once again fell into the labyrinth of thoughts……
Does Gu Yu really like him? ……