Chapter 717 - I Cant Keep Doing This (1/2)

”Are you still angry?” London asked again.

”I'm just tired. That's all.” Finally, L replied.

”I was thinking a lot last night,” London stopped his breakfast and looked gravely at L. ”I don't know why I'm so easily upset and jealous when I see you with other men. I don't like myself for doing it. After thinking for a long time, I realized ... it happened because I feel insecure.”

”What do you mean, you feel insecure?” L asked in surprise.

”Our relationship makes me feel insecure, L... I tried to be honest, and finally, I realized that the relationship that we have is only going in one direction. It's been one-sided most of the time. I was always after you and want to marry you, and you always rejected me... That's why I feel insecure. You don't love me, while I love you so much.”

”That's not true. I've accepted your proposal ...” L refuted London's words.

”Yes, you FINALLY did accept my proposal and were willing to marry me after I proposed to you for the umpteenth time. But last night I realized that ... you might accept my proposal because you were cornered and feel like you've got no other options. That's why you couldn't say no. Until today, I have never heard you tell me that you love me. I was always the one who professed love to you. Now I realize, maybe I pushed you too much so that you felt that you had no choice and were willing to marry me.”

London studied L's face carefully as he spoke, trying to understand what was in the girl's heart, but as usual, he could not read L.

”I'm sorry I became a jealous and possessive man, but I can't change who I am. I don't want to keep making you upset, but I'm sure in the future I will become even more jealous because I feel insecure. Please be honest with me if I make you feel pressured, I'll try to fix it.”

L stared back at London with a complicated look. She then turned her gaze to Lily, who was sleeping very cutely in her basket. Finally, a soft voice came from her lips.

”I ... I'm still too young to get married. If it wasn't for Lily, I wouldn't be in this situation.” L looked down and wrung her fingers. ”I think you feel cornered too. You only want to marry me because you want to be responsible for Lily. After knowing your identity, it was very difficult for me to make a fair decision because I knew you only wanted to be responsible for Lily and me. However, at the same time, I don't want you and other people to think I only married you because of your identity and your wealth that comes with it. This is a very difficult situation for me.”

”I know you are still very young, and I understand that. I have never had a romantic partner before, and neither have you. I understand if you don't want to marry me and you want to hide our relationship from the press. I don't like it, but I won't force you. I no longer want you to marry me.”

L was stunned to hear London's words. ”What do you mean? Are you going to cancel the wedding?”