Chapter 56 - Maybe this is my karma (2/2)

Finland's soft voice did not sound angry, but sad and scared, and it tore Caspar's heart. He would rather see Finland angry and accuse him of being a player, than having her sound scared and sad like this.

He could imagine Finland's worried expression on the other side of the world. Her fear of being hurt, causing her to shrink and close her heart to him. How was she able to open her heart to a man who had the power to dump her like he dumped thousands of women for the hundreds of years he had lived.

”Honey... I understand. I swear I will never hurt you. It hurts me to see you hurt. I would never do it,” Caspar said after a while. He then took a deep breath. ”Maybe this is my karma for hurting all those women. Now, the only woman I love, can't open her heart to me...”

Finland bit her lip and said nothing more. She really wanted to trust Caspar and give him her heart. She loved Caspar. She missed him every day. But she could not deny that she was very afraid of being hurt.

Throughout her life Finland had put up wall to protect herself because she had suffered too much. She knew that if her heart were hurt by love, she would not be able to recover easily.

They fell silent for a while.

”Uhm... I won't bother you any longer, I know you're very busy,” Finland finally said. ”I also have to sleep. Tomorrow I will go wakeboarding with Jean. He will go back to Paris on Thursday, so we only have a few more days to have fun.”

”Finland... let me know,” Caspar said before hanging up. ”What will make you believe that I am truly in love with you? That I have fallen in love with you, and that I have never felt this way before. What will make you believe that I want to take care of you and that I will never hurt you? What should I do?”

”I don't know...” Finland answered honestly. ”You said to me, when you know, you will know. Right now, I don't know.”

”Alright. Fair enough.” Caspar sighed. ”Have a good sleep.”

”Thank you, good night.”

Finland ended the call and tried to sleep. Her body was tired but her mind couldn't rest. All night long she tossed and turned on her bed trying to sleep, but she couldn't. Finally, she got up and cried until her tears dried.

Somewhere in Germany, in a large and beautiful castle, Caspar held his phone with a heavy heart. Beside him, a handsome man with long golden hair who looked like a prince from a fairytale, shook his head with concern.

”I agree with you. That must be karma,” he said, smiling. ”That's what you get for hurting so many women in the past.”

”Aldebar, you will also get karma for mocking your troubled brother,” Caspar scolded him. ”One day you will know how it feels to love a woman who doesn't love you back.”

”I am not afraid of that.” Aldebar patted Caspar's shoulder and left the library. His casual smile irritated his brother.

Caspar sighed again, and murmured resentfully, ”Surely this is indeed karma. Ugh...”

He paused for a moment thinking about what he had to do to reverse the bad karma that made him fall in love with a girl who wouldn't open her heart to accept his love.