94 Physical Laws only Bind Mortals (1/2)

The laws of physics were what kept the whole universe in place. This was what was believed by many scientists on Earth.

However, what if these laws were only created to help the mortals live easier? Like training wheels that had to be put in place so that toddlers know how to ride a bike.

This was how Agni explained to me the concept of being bound not by Physical Laws.

He explained to me that these binds were not applicable to them and potentially me as I ascend later to become a full pledged Spirit.

He says that achieving this would take me at least a hundred years to just take the first step. Looking forward, he estimated that with my talent, it would at least take 2 thousand years for me to fully become a Spirit in the process called Disincarnating.

Disincarnating was the process of how a mortal who has ascended discards his physical body to be fully cut off from the physical bounds of Physics.

That was why ascending once introduced us to having a spiritual body transformation. Transforming into the spirit body would tire us out normally, but in my case, my soul became the container for my reactor skills which granted me unlimited energy if my capacity meets the requirement for an action.

In the second ascension that he taught me, I would have to discard my mortal body and do away with it. In its place would be my Full Spirit Transformation which is called Disincarnating.

Having no mortal body, enables me to harness my full soul potential through the Stats that I have accumulated over the past years. I had to start my training immediately after the fight. In fact, I begged my master to teach me hastily.

Agni became my first and real master in the arts of using my power. Since I also have disciples of my own, if I consider them as such, Isaac, Caltec, Jon and Mor should also be able to learn from me when I revisit them.

”You have to start by forgetting every burden you have in your heart and mind. Releasing them from your self is hard and almost impossible, but this is only the first step. Being unable to get past this would get you nowhere at all.

”Once you start, I will not visit you until you, yourself come to me. Meaning, do not come to me unless you have already discarded your burdens of the past. You hear?”

Agni was strict, but as he said, it was necessary to take this step for me to proceed with the rest. Just like with the first ascension. It was a test of whether you were willing to sacrifice your hard-earned stats to ascend into a bigger stage. And I passed it since I did not know anything about the stakes. I hope my subordinates also did not stop their training.

”I'll leave you to it now. Start meditating.” Agni slapped my back.

I might have overestimated myself when facing them after all.

After Agni left me alone in an open spot with flames going up and down, I started my training. He said I would take 2 thousand years to finish this process, but the first step is to discard my burdens and memories that I am carrying.

”He must mean I need to put this burden off myself, instead of always carrying it. It may be good to carry it to give myself motivation but if I were to move forward and achieve greater heights it becomes a burden.”

Damn. Do I have to convince myself to release the memory of Ryan dying? Giselle?

”Fuck! This is not merely hard, this is impossible! Agni really was not lying! Fuck!”

Throwing a tantrum alone on the spot may make me look like a child, but damn man! Releasing this burden… I cannot even begin to call them burden!

”I can't do this!!”

I shouted and flopped back onto the floor sitting in place with my legs open far apart. I close my eyes and start to meditate.

***

A year later.

I've been meditating and struggling for a year now.

”I've not even gotten close to releasing my family and friend's memories and how I feel about them as I abandoned them. I just cannot. If I do, I feel as if my existence is unjustified!”

5 years going forward.

”Master!”

Master~!”

I keep calling my master for help, but he never comes. It's like he ignores me deliberately. I don't know if this is him encouraging me to forge on, or him giving up on me.

10 years passed.

I have tried everything I can that is available to me, meditating and releasing them, but every time their faces turn up in my mind, I start to tear up and my concentration and resolve is shaken badly. I still do not have the guts to forgive myself. If only I could talk to them.

A hundred years, two hundred, five and then a thousand years. Time seemed to pass faster than the speed of light and then, my Master came to me without warning.

”You're still not ready. Come on. Let's fight and loosen yourself a bit. Sitting there for a millennium hadn't helped you in the least bit.” Without warning, he punched out.

I was too muddled for sitting on the same spot and crying continuously for the last millennia. I wanted to so badly turn back time and save them in advance, but something tells me that if I did that, I'd only make a copy of them in time's flow and the main flow of time would go on without minding the split timeline.

Struggling with this for the past millennium wasn't easy. I had the power to do this. The capability to snap my fingers and be brought back to a time before Safir attacked in anger. I could but the feeling of strongly regretting the result and consequence of my action still weighs on me.

I received my master's punch squarely. However, even his punch now felt only ticklish instead of painful. I don't know when, but my spirit body has been fully washed and has purely become Spirit Energized.

This did not mean that I have already become a pure Spirit Body, in fact, I can still transform into my physical body.

What this meant was that my spirit body had become unadulterated by magic energy, miasma, fusion, fission, and solar energies. Instead only having spirit energy circulating in it. However, if I transform back to my mortal form, my body would then again be a mishmash of energies that I have absorbed through the course of time.

I was naturally blown into the horizon and a new horizon set before me as I stopped myself from being dragged by the force of master's punch.

”Here's another one!” Master appeared once again in a blink of an eye and sent another punch. This time it was to my face.

Instinctively, I covered my face to guard, that's when master's voice yet again resounded.

”Of course, it's impossible for you to separate yourself from your humanity. However, that is the only way to achieve a greater height both in power and in existence.

”Don't let the laws of Physics dictate your outcome. Let the laws of physics bow down to you instead!”

Pak!

The crisp sound of my master's punch and my guarding arm resounded. Before they collided though, hearing my master's words, I thought, ”Physics should bow down to me. Being blown away is a physics phenomenon. A transferring of force through momentum, from the punch to hitting the target. If I bend physics to my will, then that should make it so that any force acted against me to become null.”

Shhh

The sound of master's breath resounded in front of me. This time, I wasn't blown away and instead stood in place. Master is right. Physics binds only mortals. I'm no ordinary mortal!

Clenching my fists, I sent the return package to master. Punching out.

However, I realized, if I punch him, then this is still me just using physics to dish out a cause and effect situation with him.

I put as much spiritual energy into my punch, and I saw master's face twitch. I see. This was the right answer!

Pak

Another crisp sound resounded, and master had to guard against my punch. Seeing his guarding stance, it seems I have succeeded in making him defend himself.

”Not bad. Continue to meditate on this instead of you moping century after century. It's depressing.

”It's not a problem of your memories, but a problem of you forgiving yourself. I know you must have felt devastated and the guilt and shame of whatever you've done is weighing on you. However, blaming yourself for something out of your control is childish.

”Instead, work harder in order to achieve what you could not in the past. Surpass yourself and you will find that not even failure, guilt, shame and a lot of negative emotions affect you. Instead, they will make you stronger.

”Mistakes are inevitable when you're weak and vulnerable, however, even us Spirits are not exempt to mistakes that we make.

”Don't be conceited in thinking that you alone are able to shoulder the world. You're not a god, and even gods are imperfect beings. They have flaws that sometimes cost the lives of billions of innocent lives.

”Forgive yourself. And swear to never let that happen again for the same reason. That's the only way for you to release your burdens.

”Remember. You are not perfect. You are but a chick in the game of life.”

Instantly, master disappeared without warning. What he left me though, are words that was worth meditating about. So, I descended from the air and sat on the ground, meditating again.

”That's right. I make mistakes and I am guilty of abandoning my family and friends to their fate. I was responsible for them. I could not fulfill my promise to protect them.

”I am scum who cannot follow through my own promises.

”However, I have to remember. I must remember what happened at that moment.

***

Safir's attack came and I intercepted it.

”I was blocking it in hopes of giving at least my son to notice what was happening and Teleport with his mother away from Claiomh, however, I could only last a second before I would have disintegrated. Without my interception, that bastard's attack went unhindered and killed everyone.

”I remember. I remember why I decided to let go. I remember! It was for a chance to avenge them and settle the books with that god bastard in the future. No matter how long it takes!